Disrespectful. ; An August Alsina FanFiction.

All I Have

Danielle

I opened my eyes ignoring the burning sensation I felt in my left one. It was too bright in here. Fucking Eric never turns the light off.

I attempted to swallow, but somehow I was restricted to do so. It's not like I had spit to swallow anyway.

What the hell.

I sat up and wires and tubes followed. "Help." Is all I could whisper after I slid that fucking tube out of my throat. Which was the wrong thing to do.

"Ms James?! Can you hear me?" I stared up at the older pasty face woman trying to speak. I guess she saw my mouth moving and nothing coming out. The next thing I could feel was a straw at my lips.

"Owe. What's going on?" Was all I could manage at this moment with the hoarseness in voice.  She smiled while whipping her thumb across my cheek. "Don't worry hunny. The doctor is rushing right over to you now."

"The doctor? Where is my boyfriend?" I lifted myself off the bed. I was in so much pain but I needed to see what the fuck was going on. Ahh my head is pounding. "Ms James? Ms James. I'm Dr. Ward. I'm going to put this light at your eyes and I want you to follow it, okay?" I nodded my head, I wanted some answers.

After hours of probing and blood work I was getting fed up. They kept asking me questions. Asking me the last thing I remembered, and every time I asked what was going on, or what happened I was hit with 'In a moment' or, the famous one, 'right after these tests.'

I was pissed, I had no cell phone, and I didn't know where Eric was. We were supposed to be going on a vacation.

Since I didn't have a phone I flipped on the TV, maybe it could shed some light on things.

"And there is still no word on the condition of R&B singer Daniella Vega who was hospitalized almost two weeks ago. There have been plenty of rumors going around one of them that is sticking is that Ms Vega is indeed pregnant. No confirmation as of yet, but it's pretty popular because both August Alsina and Eric Bellinger who was confirmed to be Vega's current boyfriend, were escorted out of the hospital in handcuffs after a fight that broke out in the room. Who's her babys daddy?"

I sat there looking at the TV in complete and utter shock. I was lucky my mind had me turn on the TV at that moment. But the TV still caught my attention.

Eric and August? A baby? And why don't I remember any of this. I sat there with my face in my hands. I started to let out tears. I don't even know why August would be here. I haven't spoken to him.

There was a knock at the door, "can I come in? Its Nurse Kathline." I looked up at my board seeing her name and Dr. Ward's name. I nodded and hollered "Yeah", because someone needs to give me some answers.

She came in with a tray and was about to tell what I was having for dinner. She was a sweet looking older white woman. She held soft gray hair that was wrapped into a French roll into her hair. She reminded me so much of my grandmother.

She had been the one that I told about how hungry I was all day while I had all sorts of blood drawn out of me. I had been deprived of lunch because of all the tests but I guess I was okay now. Before I let her speak I began with my questions. "What the fuck is going on?" She looked at me as if I had gone crazy. Hell I feel like I did.

"I beg your pardon," I rolled my eyes. She was way too nice. "What happened to land me here? The news reports say I've been here for almost two weeks. Where's my boyfriend? I'm so confused." I began to tear up.

"Oh deary, please don't cry. They wanted you to wake up a little before they told you everything. It's a lot to wake up to baby."

I nodded my head with tears rolling down my cheeks. "Please, just tell me what's going on." She nodded and gave me such a sweet smile but it held more sadness than anything.

"Sweetie, a little over two weeks ago you were beaten, you were raped. It's been a roller coaster for you. You-- you had a few seizure while you were a sleep we're thinking it had something to do with your internal bleeding." She trailed off. I needed to know this one thing.

"Ms Kathline?" I looked up to her fix my tray on the table over my bed. "hmm, baby girl?" I smiled at her calling me baby girl. Something my grandmother would do. "Was I pregnant?"

August

"Banned from the hospital? What do you mean banned? What if I break my fucking leg?" I over exaggerated as I paced back in forth in my hotel room.

"Sir, is there anything I can help you with?" I let out a sigh. "Nah' ma'am. That's all. I apologize for my outburst." She really appreciated my apology but I didn't care.

It had been almost two weeks since I'd seen Danni. She was in a coma when she was there. I can't get the damn day out of my head.

"Oh and nigga, was that your baby in her?" 

I can't get that out of my mind. I'm going crazy. A nigga was gonna be a father? Is that why she never answered me?

I stared at my phone on the table and then I out my face back into my hands. After contemplating I grabbed my phone and placed my thumb on the bottom of the screen unlocking it. I took in a great amount of air before releasing it out with a sigh.

I clicked on the green message app on the screen and scrolled past the many people that had been texting me all week. I stopped when I clicked on her name, Daniella. I changed her name so many times before but I loved this for some reason.

The last text message that I saw there was the one I had written. I had reread it about a million times before. I just can't see why she wouldn't speak to me. I honestly needed ta' know. I have no one right now.

I read our conversations over and sighed once I got to the last text.

Danielle, I just want to thank you for all that you have done for me. I would be no where without you. With the birth of my first child coming I can't help but think that it should be you. Wearing the ring I bought her. Birthing my first little girl. I couldn't picture anyone else I could raise a family with but you. I understand that things for us have been complicated, I blame no one but myself. I could've had you after your birthday. It was sitting on my lips after I bent down and pretended to tie my shoe. I wanted to tell you there that I loved you, that somehow only after a few month with you I felt that I could map my whole life out. I know I'm coming at you with a lot right now. I just felt like I needed to get it off my chest. I love you Danni.

I copied the text waiting on my next move. I know what I wanted to do. My fingers knew what I wanted but, my brain was trying to stop me. I went back to the message screen and tapped my finger into the text box. Tapping it once to enlarge and then taping it again to have bar pop up above the text box. I pressed my finger on to paste.

I was never one to resend a text message, dwell on a woman besides my mama, or cry but I had to know if she loves me the same. Having sex isn't the only love I wanted from Danielle. I needed her support. I had no one else in my corner. She was all I had.