Disrespectful. ; An August Alsina FanFiction.

Devastation

|august|

I stared at her blankly as she did the same. Her hand landed on my leg. She pushed her hand up. "This is what you want right?" She started to climb into the backseat. I was confused. What was going in. Who was she?

"What are you doing girl?" I gave her a look and she just pulled me. Not trying to start and argument I went to the back. She stared into my eyes as she swing her leg over and got on top straddling me.

"I just want you to make the hurt go away..." She buried her face in my neck as she did while we were on the couch on her birthday.

I couldn't do this unless I knew she was sure. "Look at me." Her eyes traced my lips and once I looked into her eyes I saw what I had been missing.

Her eyes didn't just show lust, there was something else. I felt like I could read all the pain that her iris' we're trying to show me. How she felt like she didn't have anyone by her side. How a man could even hurt her the way he did. How she didn't feel good enough for anyone. Especially the most important person.

Herself.

She was beautiful. I pushed my hand up the front of her ponytail, pieces of her curly hair dropped from her bun. Her perfectly arched eyebrows relaxed as she felt my hand on her hip.

"Sing to me." She looked confused at my request. "The song you covered for me." She stared into my eyes.

"How did you know it was for you?" She questioned . "This is dedicated to your favorite part of summer." She smiled. It was amazing that I knew she was thinking of me. Even if the song wasn't what I expected.

How soon do we forget how it felt
Dealing with emotions that never left
Playing with the hand that we were dealt
In this game
And maybe I'm the sinner and you're the saint
Gotta stop pretending
But we ain't
Why we pointing fingers anyway
When were the same

I kissed her before she could even continue. I needed to feel her lips. It was too long.

"August.." She moaned as I let kisses trail her neckline. I could feel her body began to tense. It was the same feeling that I had to fight through when I first met her. I didn't want to have to break that again.

"Please relax, okay?" She nodded. I could still feel her tense up as I moved my hand between her thigh.

"Bae, is this something you want? We can stop. You makin' love to me is not going to be the determining factor. I still love you." The look she gave me was more than the confirmation I needed.

She kept the same look on her eyes as she confidently began straddling me. It was like the hotel night all over. The night I dreamt about over and over. What I thought about the few times I slept with Vanessa after.

It was like this night was destined to happen. I could feel the heat in between our bodies as she made her way down my music note behind my hear. "Can I take your shirt off?" Although she was slightly hesitant at first she nodded her head.

I led my way from her neck to the top of her breasts leaving a trail of meaningful kisses. She began to grind her on my hardened member. I was so into to her on me that I hadn't realized that my phone began to ring.

I let out a sigh. "I'm just gon ignore it." Danni gave me the nigga you better not. I took the phone to my ear. I know she heard. She slipped off my lap at the words fetus.

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I walked into the hospital nervous as fuck. There was sweat built up on my forehead as I walked down the hall to the room.

The door was slightly cracked. I could hear the monitor beeping and my heart began to break. I bravely pushed opened the heavy wooden door.

I walked into the room to see a nigga sit tin' in the chair next to the bed with his hand intertwined with hers.

"Yo, who the fuck are you? And what are you doing here?" I wasted no time turning up. I was hurt and confused as to why she was in a car accident anyway.

"Bruh, I think you need to chill ya self." Was all that came from his mouth as he turned around.

"August, when did you get here?" She attempted to sit up. The car accident seemed minor. "What happened?" I questioned as I began to walk closer to her bed. I kept the nameless nigga in my peripheral vision just in case I needed to fuck him up.

"I'm your emergency contact, or did you forget?" She shook her head no. She looked over at the dude. I needed my question answered. "Who is this guy? If you don't mind me asking. I'm pretty confused as fuck here."

She looked up at me with pleading eyes. "Please don't be upset, but you were gone and I was lonely and I just knew you were fucking Teyana. I just couldn't find th--" I looked at her then at him. The anger on his face was evident towards her but still he stayed.

It took me a minute to process this. "Is this his kid?" By now I know my appearance was the light skin version of the Hulk as I clenched my jaw so that I didn't punch that bitch in her face.

She shrugged her shoulders. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, what the fuck comes after 6? fuck fuck. "The fuck you shrugging yo shoulders for, huh?!" I tried calming down. A nigga couldn't even get past 6. I knew I was yelling, I knew I was scaring her. I just didn't give a fuck. So how the fuck she just gon assume this kid is mine.

"I don't know is what I meant. When I found out I was unsure. I was in New York to see the both of you." She whispered. I was so mad I couldn't see straight. "That was the only time we didn't use the condom the whole time." I shook my fucking head.

"I gotta go. I'm assuming the baby is fine because if not you would be some where fucking crying." My face began to burn. "Listen, babe I'm sor--" I stared right into her face. "Babe? Hoe you ain't shit to me. The fuck you thought this was, Maury? Don't fucking call me if it don't concern my seed."

I looked over at the dude as I turned around. Anger was evident in his eyes but I wasn't for it and he knew. Fuck him and her. I probably just lost the best thing that ever stepped into my life because a hoe I should've gotten rid of a year ago was lonely.

"What the fuck am I supposed to do?" I slammed my door and dialed the only number I could think to at this moment.
"Hey.." She answered dryly. I couldn't contain what the fuck I was feeling. The next thing I knew I was fucking screaming. There were tears in my eyes. Not because I was upset about leaving Vanessa but because I could possibly be losing everything. No kid, no Danni.

"Honey...?" I heard her sweet voice. I could hear the sadness in her voice. "I'm coming there. You can't drive like this. Drop a pin to where you're at okay?" I nodded my head as if she could see me. She hung up and I dropped the pin.

"What the fuck."