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Chapter 14: Secret

Kwon Boram's POV

For a moment, I was quiet, head in a state of uncertainty as my eyes stared at the blood that stained the delicate fabric which protected my femininity from the harms of the external environment. She came again, my monthly period, and since I had my IUD out, I've always had mixed feelings about it.

Up until now, I just really don't know where I stand with pregnancy. I cannot say that I want it nor could I also say that I don't. I do want it and I've told him I'm scared, I am, but I just cannot find the exact reason why I feel this way. I just know that if it comes, I'm also okay with it, but I'm also not really eager and enthusiastic about it at the moment that I would be frustrated if I don't get pregnant.

Nevertheless, I was glad that it came today.

As I washed my stained underwear, Jin came inside the bathroom, witnessing the red-stained soapy water on the basin.

"Got your period?" I was trying to read him, but he was neutral, as he's been since we began to actually try.

"I guess your swimmers aren't fast and strong enough," I joked.

He scoffed. "If that's your way of asking for me to discipline that sassy mouth and have period sex, no. My hair is already done."

I rolled my eyes. "I didn't want to anyway. I had just gotten out of the shower."

"We could NOT do it in the shower like we always do when your visitor is here and do it somewhere else," he suggested, leaning on the sink beside me, crossing his arms. "Thick sheets on the bed, perhaps?"

"We could but aren't you supposed to be going? You literally got ready earlier than usual because you have a meeting first thing in the morning, remember?" I asked while pouring the blood-stained soapy water down the drain after removing the evidence of blood on my underwear.

"It got canceled," he said. "So I have time to spare."

"So now you wanna have sex," I sighed, but thankfully, he was quick to catch the sarcasm. "All you think about me is sex."

"As do you with me," he mocked, even mimicking how I said it and sighed.

"You're annoying." I rolled my eyes.

"Mmm-hmmm, okay." He chuckled.

Then there was a moment of silence between us, and even if I was busy washing my garment, I knew he was suddenly deep in thought.

"Sagwa had sex without protection once and she immediately had Eunhye." Then he looked at me. "How come we can't get pregnant that fast when we literally fuck almost everyday since we got married?"

I was waiting for him to say something else, but the fake seriousness on his face was enough for me to understand that he was really curious about it but not so much to take it seriously. I laughed at his bizarre realization.

"Should I ask her what positions they did?" I joked, and his face brightened as if my idea was really phenomenal.

"You should!" And then he laughed. "Jokes aside, do you want to have hot chocolate for breakfast?"

"Yes, please." He knew me so well. It has always been like that with me. Something about hot and chocolate brought me comfort whenever I am in my period and he was able to catch on that when we started living together. I would usually go for coffee, but when I'm on my period, I drink hot chocolate for the entire duration of my monthly visit.