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Chapter 19: Crumble

Kim Seokjin's POV

She didn't come home, leaving me alone and restless at the four corners of our house that used to make me calm. She didn't answer my calls nor texts, and she wasn't even at home with her mom and sister. Her friends weren't with her too, and even if they asked me why I was asking her whereabouts, I tried to hide the fact that our relationship has suddenly taken a turn and we're basically living in a house made of cards even if I was so close to breaking, desperate for one of her friend to know and let me know where I'm going wrong.

Do one of them even know?

I don't know why and how. I don't know where we got wrong. I had hoped everything was going to go back to normal after all those busy months of flooded work on both of our sides, but why has it turned into this?

Boram isn't someone unreasonable. I know her. I may not understand it yet, but I know I did something to make her this upset with me. Or maybe, there's a misunderstanding on both our sides.

Whatever that is, I'm losing my mind because I cannot think of anything that I did aside from not being able to come to her cafe's opening.

Could that only be it? I asked myself for the nth time, but knowing my wife, that's not just it. It might have been a trigger to the bottled up emotions that she has been keeping to herself.

Was it because I was always away these past few months?

"Fuck, please. Where are you?" I said to myself, one leg twitching as I bury my face over my phone, waiting for any call or message from her.

I drove around the city hoping to see any signs of her but I had nothing. I went to their house too, unsatisfied with Sagwa's response because she might just be covering up for her sister. I had to fake bringing over something for Euhye just to cover up the fact that we basically had a fight and she walked out on me.

Daisy was my last hope, but being her frank self, I knew Boram wasn't with her when she curiously asked if we had a fight and began cursing and lecturing me.

"Boram, come home please. Can we talk about this properly?" I sent her a voice message after my call being unable to go through.

I came to the office the next day, mind in a blur, distracted, while I looked over my phone and waited for any responses from her. It was slowing me down. Instead of reading a sentence from reports in one pass, I had to go through it over and over.

"Mister Kim. Mister Jung of Sunshine Group has requested to reschedule the meeting an hour later than the original time. Would you have it as requested or should we fully reschedule the meeting to another day?"

"I don't have any other agendas besides that, don't I?" I asked.

"Yes."

"Reschedule the meeting tomorrow, on there preferred time instead. I'm calling the day done and you may go home," I told my secretary, grabbed my coat, and went out of the office.

I cannot focus, and being there is basically a waste of time. I'm not going to be able to function normally until I'm sure my wife is fine and unharmed.

I stopped by her office first and asked for her, only to be told that she hadn't gotten to work at all. Then, I went to her cafe again now that it's open, hoping that maybe she's there, and despite my amusement after seeing her cafe because it was actually my first time being here, my eyes searched for her around, fixated on finding her.

"Good afternoon, Sir! What may I help you with?" The cashier asked.

"Hello. Uhm, is Miss Kwon Boram around?" I asked.