'don't give a fuck' attitude. / tyler joseph | ✓

nineteen.

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"That's it," I mumbled, sighing and plopping down on the couch next to Tyler. "My apartment is all set up."

I didn't know why, but I felt like crying, a lot. Tyler put his hand on my thigh, looking over at me as my lip quivered. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into him, stroking my hair.

"It's all going so fast, Tyler," I whispered into his chest.

"I know," he nodded.

"I want to be a kid again. I was so innocent and loved. Everything was so different," I said. "Now i'm losing you."

My heart was breaking with every moment I thought about it. And more when I wasn't. I've dealt with so many losses, and now i'm losing my best friend, and possibly my only actual love.

"I'm so sorry I have to leave you, Quinn," he breathed into my hair, hugging on to me still. I nodded. Not knowing what to say. There was a long pause, then Tyler's breath caught. "Will you come with me?"

I leaned up, looking at him with teary-eyes.

"Tyler, I can't," I whispered, shaking my head.

"Why not?" He asked back almost immediately.

"I can't hold you back. I'll just be a burden, Tyler. I can't do that to you."

He had a saddened look on his face, leaned forward and pulling me into him again. He kissed my cheek, then my jaw, then my neck.

"You're never a burden, Quinn," he whispered, hugging me. Devouring me in a big hug. I shook my head.

"I've caused you so much pain. I'm not holding you back, i'm sorry," I whispered, shaking my head stubbornly. Tyler stayed silent, not another word coming from his mouth. I knew he didn't want to argue, and I didn't either. I didn't want to drag him down with me. I'd feel horrible, ruining such an amazing man's future. What he's dreamed of doing with his life.

"Graduation is in three days," he whispered. More to himself. Or maybe to us both. To help us get it through our minds.

"When are you leaving?" I asked.

"The morning after graduation."

A tear slipped down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. I'm going to lose the best thing that's ever happened to me, in three days. I felt like kicking and screaming and just breaking everything in sight. But I didn't. I chose to keep everything locked inside me. A deadly method. Because I didn't want to feel vulnerable anymore. He took my hand in his, bringing it up to his mouth and laying a soft kiss on it.

"Please don't forget about me," I breathed out, a lump forming in my throat.

"Never, I love you," he replied.

"I love you, too," I said. Kissing him.

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hi! this is another short update. all updates from now till the end are most likely going to be short updates. and the end isn't far. but don't fear...THERE IS A SEQUEL!!! It won't be too long until it's up, and this will end. but, I hope you like it. and I'm very excited for it. love you, beauts! <3