'don't give a fuck' attitude. / tyler joseph | ✓

twenty-two.

I looked down at my hands, having them shaking in my lap. Tears were already threatening to burst from my eyes, and I was close to letting them. But I had to be silent. I looked over at Tyler, who had his hand on my thigh. His eyes already trained to mine.

"You'll be okay, Quinn, I promise," he whispered, looking back to in front of him. I let out a shaky breath. Squeezing my hands into fists and feeling my nails cut into my palms. He took my hand in his and gave it a quick squeeze. Clearly knowing I was in distress.

"Quinn Bordon," the man on the stage called my name, and I instantly started to shake harder. I closed my eyes and got up, walking up to the side of the stage, and walked to the skinny podeum. My speech in hand. Luckily, I had memorized most of it, but, I might forget some of it. I took a deep breath, looking straight at Tyler as he smiled up at me. Seeing Josh next to him. And my mother in the back. I smiled slightly, a nervous smile.

"Um, well, I guess i'm done with highschool," I started. A few people giggled, including Josh and Tyler. I smiled back at them. "I'm not going to lie, i'm glad it's over. But I can't shake the feeling that i'm losing too much with the end of this. I'm losing my best friend, the boy who got me on my feet again. The boy who I went to when I was breaking down and hurting."

Tears started to come to my eyes again, and one fell down my cheek. "The one who I lived with when I had no place to go. He's leaving tomorrow. Heading to go follow his dreams with Josh, an amazing guy might I add," I looked over at Josh who smiled big. I looked at Tyler again who had tears in his eyes, and a few stained on his cheeks. He smiled up at me encouragingly. "He offered me to go with him, but I can't," I looked straight at him, shaking my head slightly. "Pursuing the music industry, and I know he will do great. And I know this whole speech has nothing about me, but that's because all I think of is him. And that is all I need."

By the end of the speech, I was close to sobbing. The man handing me my diploma and giving me a warm hug. Letting me go back to my seat. Tyler grabbed my hand, squeezing it tight as I saw his tear stained cheeks. He leaned over to me, kissing me on the cheek as we continued to watch the people go up and give their speeches. Tyler didn't get a speech, which was surprising. But he still dressed up, like everyone else.

When the ceremony was over, the whole class gathered around. Almost everyone's cheeks either stained with tears, or smiles engulfing their face. And we threw out caps in the air, the moment savored. And everyone letting out screams of glee. Tyler pulled me into him, kissing me sweetly. Both of our cheeks still wet with tears. But we didn't care. We just had to spend the next hours together before he goes off to Los Angelas. To persue his dream. Leaving me. I wish I had made a better choice. I wish I could come with him.

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i am so sad this is ending soon. but, i can't wait for the sequel. i am also posting a short story soon, a tyler joseph one. i can't wait for you guys to read it. i love you guys. stay alive |-/