Passion

Heartbreak Sorrows

A night of drinking and stuffing themselves with food and watching trashy reality shows, Natalia had gotten over her sadness to annoyance and frustration, Lilith and Rachael left due with Natalia's permission, Scarlett did her hair, "How you feeling right now?" Natalia let out a frustrated sigh, "Just progressing my anger, I really thought he was someone I felt connected with. I really should've said something to you girls and see if you knew him or his name, clearly I was still the native hopeless romantic who's hoping for something to be real." Hands on her face, so frustrated and disappointed, feeling sympathetic towards Natalia, focusing doing a braid on her wavy brown hair, her Afro texture was different yet Scarlett is doing her best.

"Don't let this one experience stop you from finding someone, you were just enjoying having fun, you found him who took advantage of the fact you've been hurt and wanted to lift you up by saving you. Clearly he was hoping you would use your self-esteem to feel so damn confident and when you did, he probably was ready to tore it down, making you feel unloved, unworthy and ugly for anyone to love you back and then the worst would spring in and ruin the rest of you." Natalia felt the energy and the tone of Scarlett's voice get with that.

Glancing down to her hands, her nails, "You experience the same thing, was it with Trishana?" Asked Natalia with curiously and caution, a sigh came from Scarlett, "Some girl I met during highschool, I was such a hopeless romantic, of course I am a lesbian and wanted some girl to give me some attention, just one glance they gave me I'm so hooked. And I was lucky and surprised to have caught eyes on this gorgeous girl."

"I bet she was gorgeous."

"Oh you have no idea. Oh I did everything to get her to just speak to me, and she did." A soft chuckle, grabbing a water bottle to take a sip, the cats walking around, climbing on their cat tree, Natalia softly smiled, "When did you know you were into girls? When did you came out?"

It took a minute for Scarlett to think, while doing another braid, "I guess I always knew, I was 13. Kept it to myself until I know for sure, if not watching the girls doing cheerleading didn't do it for me, it definitely did. Especially the girls on the swim team."

"Sporty girls is what you're so into, got it. Your type?"

Scarlett laughed, "Girls in sports, has always been so hot and the way they move, I went to an all girls school since what my mom always says, 'makes me focused and not looking at boys.'" Natalia laughed, "No, really?"

"Oh yeah. It backfired on her, it's definitely heaven. I came out at 15, of course my mother was so pissed, she didn't start with the homophobic shit but she was not happy. Expected me to continue like boys and didn't even take me out of school, so I stayed and met her. You could say she was my first love and she was definitely charismatic and knew what she wanted. Of course I ignored the narcissism and mood swings in her, I was in love, or what I thought or wanted it to be. Or whatever a naive hopeless romantic a 15 year old thought it was."

"Why do we do it? Ignore the red flags when it's there but we don't see it."

"It's because love is definitely blind, we know it's there but we don't want to believe it and just hope they'll change. So 3 years with her, it was definitely hell, always belittle and manipulated me, always with threatening to do something if I don't call or be with her all the time. It was exhausting, but I wanted her, but she ended things with me and ran off with another girl and than she left that girl after a month and got with this guy who was definitely bad news and exactly like her so I guess they found each other." Finishing the braid, Scarlett put her hair in a bohemian bun, Natalia turned around and accepted Scarlett's water bottle, taking a sip, "That must've been rough, at least you got rid of her, for what she did to you. We just attract red flags, don't we?"