Passion

Couldn't Be Any More You

Natalia's POV

Almost a week since I've done my fantasy with Scarlett, and I already can't shake this new feelings I have for her! And I still can't believe it's happening and I'm dealing with a lot.

Dealing with work, more persistent calls from Patrick that I would block or ignore, receiving a message from Trishana for a meetup that I would just ignore.

Not only that, Scarlett taking the chance and seeing whoever woman that got her attention lately but I've done my best to send some lewd photos and messages to Scarlett. To get her to focus on me rather whoever she's with.

There's so much I can do that I can't always do that. and the worst part about it is... I don't want to lose my friendship with Scarlett.

However my heart hurts whenever Scarlett leaves for whoever is taking her attention away from, getting her time and energy when she should use it with me but I know I can't feel this way with our contact.

I've done everything I can to ignore these feelings I have for her, it's like being stabbed in the heart, I can't stop thinking about Scarlett. As the days go by, taking the chances in inviting Scarlett over for more punishment, being a brat, using toys to expand our time together, continuing our BDSM relationship, yet whenever we kiss, going from hunger and lust to more passion and the chemistry, just became more and more confusing towards the end I just want to scream it to the rooftop by how much I want her but I know it's nothing serious. It can't be serious by who we are and what we're doing, the way Scarlett's takes the time to make me feel content, comfortable and even feel I'm the only person in her eyes and world that I unfortunately remembered is just how she always is. That perfect person. She wouldn't risk ruining what we have right now for some feelings she may or may not have towards me.

I don't want to ruin things to end our contact, if romantic feelings are what causes confusion and complicated unnecessary feelings, knowing you never agreed to it, then I fear it would be what ended things for us. Especially if I never came into agreement with these feelings, I can't imagine what else is going to happen with us. Whoever is going to be the one to really end it.

And can't even speak with Lilith because she's just left for Japan with Rio to visit his family so they'll be gone for weeks. Can't speak with her about how she did it with Rio, becoming Domme and Sub to a couple and now married, although can't really know since it's different with them. So damn different.

I've been spending so much over Racheal, however Magnus was here but I don't really mind it, he's been over at the penthouse with Racheal and us so much he's been such a great guy and friend.

Racheal had to leave the room as she was under the care of the club by Lilith, she went out to the patio balcony while Magnus and I were left alone.

"Hey, tell me, what do you know about Racheal?"

"Well with these short months I've known her, she's very reliable, fun, confident and freaking incredible friend, I'm glad I met her and Lilith and Rio and Scarlett. I've gotten closer with her especially. Are you interested in her?"

He gave a grin, he definitely has a thing for her!

"I like a woman with fire, she knows what she wants and is outspoken, takes no shit from anyone. Damn she can be so stubborn and adventurous, I'm into it. But I wouldn't say or anything until she feels the same way about me, between you and me, I even quit smoking for her."

"Oh that's hot."

"Right."

"Well what I've seen, you seem like such a great guy, what she always talks about you, you definitely are an impressive man and person."