Passion

Blaming the Blame

"Your father met that woman, Magnolia Cross, when she first came to the precinct and all those extra late nights, no more surprise coming home real early on Wednesdays and Sundays, was all because of her. I knew the signs, I've been cheated on so I know the signs and when meeting your father, I thought I found the one. Well, I did get pregnant early with you so we married rather quickly but we were so in love and he was everything. However it wasn't really it, I found out about it a month before he died, I did my own research and investigation, and when the day came, I called him and he was so sure of himself, gaslighting me, giving lies so quick that I was wrong but I shared the details and everything and knew about the pregnancy and he was quiet. And immediately started apologizing and did everything to defuse the situation, I kept hanging up and he kept calling and calling. Until eventually I told him it's over and I was getting a divorce and ended the call over and over until eventually he... He didn't anymore and thought that was the end of it. But he was in that accident and learning he called you and you lied where you were and thought you were responsible. Yes I could've told you the truth but I was dealing with the loss and with Kate and you that, I couldn't."

"You made me believe I was responsible. Made me live with this damn guilt thinking I caused him to be distracted." Scarlett's voice rose, unable to believe what her mother had kept from her for years, "You have any idea the guilt I carried, thinking I was the one distracted dad into getting into the accident, the last thing I told him to stop calling me and lying that I was in school and he was being annoying. How could you not say anything!"

"Because I didn't want you to look at your father differently!"

"But you're okay with me carrying this damn guilt for years?! I was 16 and thought I killed dad! Are you serious? You had chances to tell me and let me know I didn't do anything wrong but no, you kept your mouth shut! I can't believe you!"

"Scarlett!"

"No! I blamed myself everyday for years and thought I killed him, but to hear he had a mistress and a son, it was better to share that with me then letting me believe I killed him! Why! Why let me believe this over the years!"

Julie groaned in frustration, "Because you saw him as your hero, Myles was always been your hero and how close you two were and always talking about wanting to be just like him and I just... I just couldn't ruin that image of him for you or for Kate. I was devastated when he died, I was so focused on Kate and with everything being so chaotic..."

"Blaming me over and over with your eyes and the way you just are, I can't believe you!" Scarlett grabbed her jacket and stormed off, Julie hurried towards her, "Scarlett wait!"

"No! I'm done! You had so many chances and chose not to say anything and let me believe I was the reason for him dying, let me riddle with guilt! You're unbelievable!"

"I know I shouldn't have and I'm the blame for that but I just didn't want you to see your father any differently!"

"I am now! Now he had some son he had with that woman and what happened to them? Are they even around?"

"No because I fought my ass off in making sure they don't get anything from him, the life insurance and everything, at least I know he didn't damn change it, the skank moved down to Long Island, she couldn't risk anyone finding out her son belongs to Myles. I know you can't forgive me but please..."

"No. No I can never forgive you, I lived with it for years! Don't ever call me, I'm done." Scarlett left the hospital, Racheal followed behind, "Leave me alone, Rach, I need to be alone."

"I don't think so, my girl needs me and I know what you need, ice cream and movie marathon, oh we could just do something else."

"No, no I just need to be alone at the moment, I can't be with anyone at the moment and you need to take care of the club and you did a lot for me with Kate. I love you for that and it's fine, I just need my cats and bed and alone time."