He pushed me, i hit the wall, then he held my wrists and stuck my arm, it was a hard wall, as i struggled, my arm got hurt badly, the skin just pealed , it burnt and hurt so much, but there was no time for pain, he hit me across the face, so i lost my patience, all this time believe it or not, i was calm, but then i just got outraged, i hit him in the guts with my knee, and i went for the throat then i aim the gun and out of nowhere i pulled the trigger, it shot his chest, on the left side, blood flooded, i dropped the gun, i fell beside Frank, and i put my hand on the wound on his chest, he was already dead, but it didn't hit me then. I can't figure out what i felt then. I can't. I didn't. But I'm trying. I really hope i do. Maybe then i can move on. Maybe then i'd live with what i did. My hand was covered in his blood. I was sitting beside the body, i leaned my back on the wall and just stared. A few minutes later i started to understand what happened. It hit me hard on the head. I looked at my hands, my eyes got wider, my heartbeat got faster and faster by each passing second. There were pieces of a broken mirror on the floor, i don't remember if it broke from the fight or if it was broken since we got there. I didn't really notice. A piece of these broken pieces stood leaning on the wall beside me. I look to the left and i see my reflection, and it's like i don't even recognize myself anymore. I have to admit i always made fun of these who killed for the first time in a movie and then couldn't recognize themselves in the mirror. I always considered it "The Most Unrealistic Cliché" but I didn't see myself in that mirror, i only saw the girl who fought and killed, i didn't see these jewelry-filled hands, i only saw hands covered in her friend's blood. I didn't see those innocent eyes that never failed anyone, i only saw cold-blooded yet paranoid eyes. It was hard to understand. It was a lot to breathe in. And Lucas was waking up.
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While We Wonder [#Wattys2015]
General FictionFour kids from different places have been touched, connected, or have an indirect relation with death. After, almost losing their last bits of hope, their hopes are renewed on the day of miracles, New Year's eve, when they all meet each other, conti...