While We Wonder [#Wattys2015]

Chapter 8

"He started hitting on me and threatened to rape me as a punishment for who i am and then started to corner me and when Lucas tried helping he knocked him down and he passed out then when i was near the wall and the gun i hit him and reached out for the gun he kept kept grabbing it from me so at last i pulled the trigger"
"But how was it possible for you to cause that much of damage to someone almost twice your size, when you had no weapons in the beginning of the fight as you assumed, and the doctors say that the bodily harm was done with bare hands and feet, in other words you or whoever did that harm did not use any weapoms, and you're too small to do that kind of harm as i said, so do you have any sorts of explanation?"
"Define the exact meaning of explanation that you want to hear"
"Meaning did anyone hit Frank for you? Or maybe it was planned so he had no time for self-defense?"
"Objection your honor that's an accusation for  my client and she's on the stand as a witness and not a prone" my lawyer said
"Please rephrase," she addressed Frank's family's lawyer
"How did you hit Frank so bad, may i ask?"
"I play kickboxing and i've taken a few self-defense classes and i fought a lot in the ring, in other words sizes don't really affect me, if i'm defending myself i know how do it very much,"
"No further questions."
The jury decided that i wasn't guilty and that i was telling the truth after they questioned Lucas of course and asked us all what Nina and James were out doing.
Now, three years later, i am working as a SVU cop/investigator in homicides.
I still feel the guilt, and i try as hard as i can to forget about it, and i also try to save as much people as i can, i did, i saved three, they were about to die, and i also saved one who was about to kill, he's in a facility because of his personality disorder, but i visit often, and he's getting better, and truth be told, i like him very, very much.
So this is my story, and though i've done a lot of goods, they never made up for the sin i've made.