we get back home around 10, and im happy to see jess enjoying herself in the game room with the boys. Jesse looks at her the way any girl wants to be looked at, and my heart swells with happiness for her.
"hey guys" adam says.
"did you use protection?" mickey jokes and we all laugh.
"did you guys eat yet?" adam asks.
"yea jess made us all burgers." jess has always been very good in the kitchen.
"where have you been?" jess asks me.
"with the man of my dreams. he took me to the beach and it was amazing."
i see a tinge of jealousy, and i apoligize.
"oh no not like that..i just wish jesse would take me out."
"oh." ill have adam talk to him.
"im tired you wanna go to sleep?" sbe asks changing the subject.
fucking adam and our perfect night out together really had worn me out, so i say goodnight to everyone and we go to bed.
"so hows big papa?" she asks as she turns out the light.
"huge." i reply. she giggles and we try to sleep, but i cant. i sit in bed thinking about everything thats happened over the past few days, and theres too much stuff to think about to sleep.
i hear jess fall asleep. im thirsty so i get up to get some water. i rush down the hall and turn the corner when-
bam! matt ran straight into me.
"im so sorry!" he says.
"its okay.. i wasnt watching where i was going. "
"i thought you went to bed?"
"couldnt sleep" i simply reply.
"adam does that to people." he rolls his eyes as if hes used to it.
i excuse myself to go to the kitchen.
"tell me if you need anything else" he says and walks away. he sure is nice.
i return to my room, but once again my thoughts drown out my body crying for sleep. i decide to see if adam is in his room.
"oh hey" he says as i open the door. hes dressed in only boxers, standing in the bathroom shaving.
"i couldnt sleep."
"aw im sorry. wanna sleep with me?"
im sure he has other things in mind, but i dont care.
"as long as you dont mind.." i try not to seem so deperate for him, but i really am.
he smiles and hops into bed.
"come join."
i decide to strip to just my underwear as he has, and i climb in next to him.
"you really are the most beautiful girl ive ever laid my eyes on." he says.
i blush and kiss him. he wraps his arms around me, pulling me tighter to him. his skin feels good against mine.
he turns out the light and whispers into my ear "goodnight. i love you."
my heart pounds so hard i feel like its going to fall out of my chest.
"i love you too" i reply and he kisses me on the forehead.
"goodnight" he says and holds me tight to him. i feel like putty in his arms, and i close my eyes, happy that hes mine.
