Promise? (#wattys2015)

Chapter 16

I put my phone away, confused. I didn't want to ruin our friendship but I barely knew this guy. There was no way we could be together when I move away. We have no foundation to rely upon. This was the start of our relationship and we had a long way to go, which would be a really hard thing to do if I moved away. I thought long and hard. I had to do something with my life. I can't distance myself from everyone for a guy who doesn't even think about me anymore. I had to move on and this was my chance. I texted Samuel to meet up the day after, and dozed off to sleep. 

I met up with Samuel the day after, but there was some awkwardness between us. I decided to break the silence, and started talking about my lunch. Samuel just stared at me, quietly. I tried hard to think of something but nothing came to my mind. I had to talk about 'us'. There was nothing else to hide behind. I cleared my throat but before I could finish, Samuel started speaking.

"Priscilla.. I really like you. I really don't care that you're moving away. I want to give it a shot. That is all."

"Yes I get it but what if I meet other people there? I don't even love you yet Samuel, and I'm sure you don't love me too. We just like each other, and thats not a very strong foundation for a long distance relationship. Lets date for a while, and if we meet other people, we will part ways. Is that fine? I am really sorry but that is all I can do Samuel. I like you and that is it."

"Sure I like that," he said, beaming and then he kissed me out of nowhere. I never saw that coming. I had never been kissed before, without permission. I had never been kissed on a first 'date'. I was confused. It was normal right. What's wrong with kissing the guy you're dating?

EVERYTHING, especially when you're still in love with someone else - my inner conscience screamed back at me but I ignored it. I had to move on and this was the first step. With that, I kissed him back. Samuel started kissing me again and again, and honestly I just wanted it to stop. I wasn't enjoying it. He was forcing himself onto me, but I couldn't bring myself to walk away, because technically there is nothing wrong...

I made up an excuse to leave and ran down to Ariel's house. Sophie was there too. They were shocked to see me but invited me in, nonetheless. I told them about the whole incident, right from the start till the end. They listened patiently. Ariel stayed quiet but Sophie begged me to think about what I really wanted. I nodded and smiled slightly. We watched a movie after that to take my mind off things, and soon it was dinner time so I headed home for dinner.

Dinner passed quickly as I ate my lasagna horribly fast, wanting to get to my room to spend some alone time. I rushed up to my room after dinner to see a text from Samuel. I started texting him, and before I knew it, it was 1 A.M. I headed to bed, counting down the days. 

I had 10 more days before I had to move away forever. The next 10 days were undoubtedly the best days of my life. I went out everywhere, from shopping centres to theme parks with my friends and stayed out till late. We sneaked into the cinema a couple of times. Got our nails painted the same colours. Got the same shirts and even similar rings. It was kicking in. 3 more days to go. I met up with Val and Layla for lunch and movie but through out the movie, I was thinking about how my life was about to change. We met up with Sophie and Ariel after the movie, and went down to the bowling alley. I lost, as usual, but I had so much fun. A part of me wanted to stay behind forever but I knew that I had to accept reality. 

I met up with Samuel for dinner that night and we ate fish and chips under the stars. Despite having someone who I could be almost comfortable with, I was never fully satisfied. I convinced myself that things would get better with time. We just started to get to know each other, it takes time. After dinner, I headed home to pack my bags. The last 2 days were spent packing my things and organising my whole life's worth of clothes into 3 boxes! 

And finally, it was here. The day. I woke up, reluctantly. I was going to miss my tiny room. I was going to miss the way the sunlight blinds me every morning. I was going to miss running down a few blocks to meet my friends. I was going to miss everything, and everyone. I made my way to the airport with my family, and all my friends were there. I tried so hard to keep it all together but there is only so much one can tolerate. I burst open, crying, and hugging my friends. My parents went to get tickets for the check in. Samuel couldn't make it, and strangely it didn't bother me one bit. My arms were flooded with farewell gifts and cards. I waved good bye to them, as I walked further and further away from them. I entered the departure hall, and that was the last time I saw them.