How it started

Upset

Soffia's POV
Two days after Christmas

Christmas was a lot of fun, we watched movies the rest of the evening. I kinda have been hiding in my room the last two days though, I just kinda got upset the night of Christmas. I was just thinking of my mates and they say they love me but would they really leave me alone like this if they did? I'm strong, I could've kept up with them why wouldn't they bring me?

Are they even going to come back? do they still wanna be my partners and caregivers? Tears fill my eyes again as all the thoughts fill my head. My door creaks open, and I sniffle trying to wipe my face. but it's too late. Rosalie steps in her eyes instantly softening as she takes in my trembling form.

"Bunny" she murmurs, her voice gentle but firm. She kneels next to my bed brushing a stand of hair from my tear-streaked face. "hey baby it's okay, what's got my girl crying?" she ask softly. I whimper as I bury my face into her chest, letting out a shaky sob. "thoughts too much and and I hate that they left me" I cry.

Rosalie tenses before tighten her arms around me. "Why didn't they bring me? what if they don't want me anymore. I'm angry they left me alone" I sob as Rosalie pulls me into her lap. "Oh baby" she says gently rocking me. "It's okay to be mad and sad bunny. They do want you, you are their world it's just safer for you to be here than with them" she explains.

I can hear the slight furry in her voice like she's holding back her own anger, why does she seem mad? "A-are you mad at me Rosie?" I ask lifting my head up as the tears keep streaming down my face. "I'm not mad at you baby never" she says placing a kiss to my head. "I'm just upset with them also, they shouldn't have left you behind atleast without a better explanation" she says.

"They made their choice though, but that doesn't mean you are not strong, important or loved" she says. I cling to her tighter, the mix of anger and sadness spilling out of me. Having Rosie with me seems to make it a little easier to let myself feel all the feelings. "After everything, when I was away because Riley kidnapped me" I mutter cringing at the memory.

"I thought they'd wanna keep me close and not be away for that long again" I cry as Rosie keeps her hold on me. "It's okay to feel like that bunny, You've been through so much the whole time i've known you" she says brushing my hair back. "you deserve to feel safe, and loved and never feel like you've been left behind like this" she says making cry harder.

I press my face closer to her chest, "I just.. just don't understand why they went. I mean I do but I don't. I wanted to be with them" I cry, Her arms tighten around me again like she's protecting me from everything including the world "I know baby, it's hard for you to understand. They love you too much to risk you being hurt so they thought you'd be safer here" she says.

"I hate that they left you alone. I want to tell them off myself but I also know they love you and that's why they went. That doesn't make it any less frustrating" she says. I nod and hug her tighter, she understands me. She's staying, she's protecting me why couldn't they? I sniffle as I cling to her.

"I just don't want to be left again" I whisper, Rosalie tenses under me before kissing my head "you won't be bunny. not while i'm here and the rest of our family is here" she says. I snuggle into her, the tears slowly stopping, Somehow Rosie being mad with me and for me makes the ache of their absence a little more bearable.

"Thank you Rosie" I whisper, my voice muffled against her chest as I hid against it. "You don't have to thank me Bunny" she says softly brushing my hair back. "I'll always be here for you" she says. I smile and stay against her "can I stay with you and Emmett the rest of the day?" I ask pulling my head back.

"Of course baby, Emmett is out right now training with the others let's go do something just us girls yeah?" she says making me nod. "your room?" I ask, I'm not usually allowed there "yes come on" she says making me smile as she hoist me on her hip and carry's me upstairs. We quickly make it to their room and it's always so pretty, Rosalie decorates well she sets me on their couch and pulls out some puzzles and coloring stuff.