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Forgiveness

Soffia's Pov

"Hi sweet girl, how are you feeling?" mama ask me as she brushes the hair out of my face, I whine and turn my head away. I hear her chuckle as she rubs my back "come on baby, I know you are loving the relaxing time in bed but I need you to get up" she says, I huff before sitting up.

"why mama? I wanna just stay in bed" I ask, "someone wants to talk to you today" she says, I pout before nodding "c-can I stay in my jammie's and be small?" I ask, "of course baby, i'm not gonna force you to be big" she says, I smile and crawl into her arms letting her pick me up.

"I love you my sweet girl" she says kissing my head, "love you mama" I say laying my head on her shoulder as she carries me out of the room. We make it downstairs "daddy" I say seeing him stand there with Emmett he chuckles and holds his arms out to me "hi bubbles" he says holding me in his arms and placing a kiss to my head.

"still small I see" he says making me nod and lay my head on his shoulder, "Let's go upstairs and talk to her Jasp" mama says making me wave bye to Emmett as daddy carry's me upstairs and back to our room making me pout. "Someone is gonna knock on the door in a moment and wanna talk" mama says making me tilt my head, "who?" I ask, "Edward" she says making me tense and shake my head.

"No" I say my headspace quickly disappearing as I sit up and slip off Jaspers lap, "why? why does he want to talk? no!" I shout causing my ability to crackle and the heat to radiate off me, Alice stands up quickly grabbing my hands "baby look at me, you need to calm down okay" she says keeping her hold on me. I sigh as I try to relax so the fire stays within me "You don't have to see him if you really don't want too but he asked to apologize, if you want to hear it" Jasper says rubbing my back.

"he hurt me" I say sadly looking down as tears fill my eyes. "I know baby, but he just didn't understand it, if you'll hear him out he can explain" Alice says placing a kiss to my head as she holds my arms. "okay" I say softly, "can we talk alone?" I ask, "Are you sure?" Alice ask, "yes please" I say she nods before opening the door allowing Edward in as they leave.

"Call us if you need" Alice says before shutting the door, "Hi" he says, voice quieter then any time he's ever talked to me. "I wanted to say sorry, you didnt deserve all the ways I treated you" he says, I stare at him as he picks at his hands. "I know I was wrong, I was scared and then I just let the fears turn to anger. I didn't even try to understand you instead I hurt you" he says softly.

I hug my knees to my chest, chewing my lip as I watch him. My skin still radiates with heat I want to scream at him and tell him how much her hurt me at the same time I just feel tired of it. "Y-you made me feel like it wasn't allowed. Like I wasn't wanted" I say my voice cracking "like I didn't belong" I say. I watch his face twist, pain flickering in his eyes "You do belong Soffia. You always did and always will. I was the one that couldn't see it. I wish I could take it back but I can't all I can do is do better going forward" he says.

I stay quiet, fiddling with my pajama sleeve "Why?" I ask, he looks me over "why what?" he ask "why were you scared of me that it became anger and you were mean?" I ask my voice soft, "I guess I was jealous and I let my jealousy and fear take over me" he says, my eyebrows furrow as I look at him "Jealous? why?" I ask, " You have what I don't. You let people see you. Really see you. Even when it's messy. I've spent decades hiding behind this perfect image and you just... are yourself. And they all love you more for it." he says.

My hand fall to my side, he's just been jealous? he was mean and made me feel like a burden because he didn't know how to let people see him, "They love you too you know, maybe if you opened up more you'd feel better" I say softly, he nods clasping his hands together. "I'm still hurt a-and I don't think I can trust you yet" I say softly.

"You hurt me, made me feel like I was a burden and who I am is bad. I'm not mad anymore just hurt" I mumble, "I understand" he says, "you don't have to forgive me today... or ever if you don't want to" he says his voice dropping lower as he speaks. My eyes tear up at his tone, "maybe we can try slowly, I can't forgive you yet but maybe later?" I say.

I watch his shoulders relax a little and he nods "slowly is good, i'll follow your pace" he says making me nod. "Thank you for apologizing and telling me the truth. I need time but eventually maybe we can be friends" I say, he nods again "hopefully i'll earn your trust to become family" he says making my eyes sting again.

"Maybe" I say softly, he stands "thanks for hearing me out Soffia i know I didn't deserve it but thank you" he says, I nod and stand up to follow him "no problem, just don't be mean again yeah?" I ask, I hold my hand hesitantly sticking my pinky out, his eyes widen but he quickly wraps his pinky around mine "I promise, i'll never be mean to you again" he says softly before letting me finger go.

It's a start to slowly trusting him, and hopefully i'm not making the wrong choice. A knock at the door makes me look towards it "You okay baby?" Alice ask coming in, I nod and move to her quickly and enter her arms. "We talked" I say, she runs her fingers through my hair making me sigh against her. "How are you feeling sweet girl?" she asks.

"hurt but i'm not that mad anymore, just hurt" I say she tightens her arms around me. "that's a good step forward baby, i'm proud of you for giving him a chance to explain" she says kissing the top of my head. "I'll give you guys some space, thank you again for hearing me out Soffia" he says, I give a tiny nod and he leaves.

"I don't want to be big anymore, I just want to be with you guys and rest. No other thoughts please" I mutter, Alice sits down on the bed and pulls me on her lap. "That's okay sweet girl, let yourself go. Daddy and I are here" she says making me sigh against and lay my head against her chest. I close my eyes and play with the ends of her shirt.

Letting everything go, "mama" I whisper, "yes my love?" she says tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. "can I have my bunny?" I ask, I hear her chuckle as she reaches over to grab it from the nightstand. I gently take it from her and tuck in under my chin, "smells like mama" I says softly as I keep it close to me and she places another kiss on my head.

"what about daddy?" I hear making me giggle as Alice laughs "daddy smells like pine, mama smells like lavender and bunny smells like lavender so it smell like mama" I say making them both chuckle. "I'm proud of you bubbles" daddy says placing a kiss on my cheek. "Thank you daddy" I say smiling softly as I grab ahold of his hand and hold it tightly.

"mama?" I ask, "yes sweet girl?" she says with a small chuckle "can we just stay like this? no thinking no nothing, just you, daddy and me" I say she rubs my back "of course baby, just us three" she says making me smile. I close my eyes again and stay resting on her chest and the comfortable silence fills the room around us.

Sorry for the lack of post!! I've just been out of it and busy with work and such.

I think i'll have ten more chapters for this story and then it will be finished 🙃