How it started

trusting again

Soffia's POV

I sob as I cling to my pillow, I've locked my door and made it very clear that no one is to enter the past couple days, not that they don't try though. I hold my bunny close to me as I cry harder thinking of everything that's happen the past month. Another knock at my door makes me flinch "go way" my voice hoarse from all the crying i've been doing the past three days.

"Bunny" I hear Rosalie say making me lift my head slightly, "can you please let me in bunny?" she ask, her voice cracks slightly making me move to stand. Rosie never sounds this sad. "nuh wana talk" I mumble against the pillow as I hold it close to me, "please bunny, we don't have to talk yet, just let me in. I want to see you" she says.

I bite my lip as I walk toward the door and hesitantly unlock it. The door creaks open as she enters my dark room. I have all the curtains close, my hair is a big mess and i'm sure my eyes are also and my face is stained with tears. "oh bunny" she says gently coming towards me slowly after shutting the door. "can I hug you?" she ask, I hold my pillow closer to me and nod. She quickly scoops me into her arms and holds me close.

"I-i'm upset, everything was too much after I was with them again it just brought up how they left me behind" I sob as she gently rocks me. "Oh I know baby" she says making me sob harder. "I want to just forgive them and be in their arms but i'm also so mad that they were gone for so long and we couldn't even talk" I cry.

"You don't have to forgive them yet if you are not ready bunny" she whispered firmly as she rubs my back. "You're allowed to feel your feelings. Allowed to be mad, hurt. They made their choice and it hurt you" she says making me cling tighter as I hiccup. I whimper against her neck "I love them so much but what if they don't care as much for me as I do them?" I ask my voice quiet and broken.

Rosalie tenses under me as she grabs my chin gently and lifts my head up "Alice and Jasper love you and they care for you just as deeply, they just handled this the wrong way" she says making more tear's fall down my cheeks as I nod. My lip trembles as I hug her tighter. "it feels like I wasn't enough for them to stay for" I admit.

Rosalie shakes her head instantly, her golden eyes flashing with a sharp, protective glint. "Don't you dare think you aren't enough. You are more than enough, Soffia. If they can't see how much their choices broke you, then they'll have to answer to me." Her tone grows darker at the end, and for a second I believe she'd storm out and tear into Alice and Jasper right now if I asked her to.

Rosalie calms down after a moment and her eyes soften "Take your time, talk to them when your ready and express how your feeling" she says pushing my hair away from my wet cheeks. "You don't have to forgive if you aren't ready, but you should talk and let them explain" she says. I nod rubbing my cheek against her shirt trying to wipe the tears away.

"Don't lock yourself away anymore, come to me or any of us. We are here for you bunny" she says sitting me up and brushing my hair back, "how about a bath and fresh clothes and then you go talk to your mates?" she says softly "you are kinda stinky" she says scrunching her nose making me smile softly.

"am not" I mumble making her laugh and hoist me up, "lets go little stinker" she says bringing me out of my room and upstairs to the bathroom. She sets me on the floor as she starts the bath, I watch her put my favorite bubble scent in along with my toys. I bite my lip as she helps me with my shirt and pants before gently setting me in the bath.

I sigh, my body relaxes in the water. "Lean your head back please bunny" Rosie says making me nod and lean it back as she dumps water on my head and gently running her fingers through my tangled hair. I sigh letting her do that before pushing my head back up and pushing one of my ducks around the water.