just love me ( complete/ finish)

chapter 6

70 days, 30 days remaning...

mula ng makalabas ako sa hospital at makalipat kami sa bagong bahay all my worries fades away.

marcus and i, we became more close, this thing we have now grows everyday as we have each other.

its more deep, deeper than before.

akala ko dahil may maid na kami hindi ko na sya maasikaso but i still do, malaking tulong din si flor sa akin.

magmula ng lumipat kami dito at pagkatapos ng nangyari sa amin after kung makalabas ng hospital.

marcus acts fucking wierd and i fell something weird too

its weird,the way marcus look at me now makes my heart beats like a thousand times.

the way he hold may hands

the way he touch my body

the way he kisses me

and the way we make out every fucking night.

hindi ko alam kung anung nanyri sa amin dalawa, marcus is silent type person kaya hindi ko alam ang tumatakbo sa isip nya and me being me, i dnt ask questions.

i just go to the flow kung anu man ang nanyayari sa amin ngayon masaya ako kontento na ako.

the first night we spent in our new house,the way we make out that night is the best night of my life.

maraming beses na may nangyari sa amin pero iba ang gabing yun , iba sa mga napagdaanan namin gabi na magkasama,

nung gabing yun naging umpisa ng kakaibang pakiramdam.

the way we make out was something new and something special. like we are making love like two people inlove, ewan ko yun ang pakiramdam ko every night.

kung totoo ang kasabihan action speaks louder than words malamang masasabi kung may something na si marcus sa akin.

over protective at sobrang control freak lahat ata ng out of the town photo shot ko gusto nya alam nya at minsan gusto nya kasama ko sya.

kapag out of the country naman sya sinasama nya ako at dahil dun they starting to know me as the soon to be mrs. marcus madrigal at pati sa paradise nalaman na din sympre araw araw ba naman akong sunduin ni marcus mahahalata talaga nila pero hindi nila alam na kasal na kami, yun ang kasunduan namin ni marcus im just his girlfriend yun engagement ring at wedding ring nasa bag ko pa din.

only some people know us as married couple and im thankful for that hindi na din nagpumilit pa si marcus to announce we are married what for? it will end it anyway.

marcus and i

marcus and i

sa tuwing inisip ko ang sitwasyon namin i wish it was real,.he was real.

dahil this marriage is fake not the marriage but the word we and us is fake, not real, only for conveinent, just for the contract.

us in 100 fucking days..

what i hate now that marcus is acting too good, so fucking good na parang totoo na.

what makes it worst i feel he became so special to me.

special just special person in my life for now

beause im not ready for anything.,.

im not brave enough to love him..,

i just can't even thou i want too

i just can't i really wish i can't

because every time i think about what happen to me five years ago and from where we stand today malinaw na malinaw walang pupuntahan ang puso ko kapag hinayaan ko.