After I got home from being with seaton I laid down. I heard a knock at the door and sighed while getting up. I walked downstairs and opened the door. "Wassup" tone said and I stared at him. "Hello" I said and he walked inside. "What are you doing here" I asked. "I just wanna talk to you" he said through laughs as he sat on the couch. "Okay" I said. I sat on the other couch and he stared at me. "What happened to your face" I asked and he laughed. "Me and yo nigga got into it." He said. "Seaton?" I asked. "Yup. We was on they block posted, im the only one out of everybody else who ain't get killed." He said. "Nigga did some crazy Shit. He was bout to kill his self. Had the gun to his dome and everything. Nah I probably woulda laughed if that nigga woulda pulled the trigger doe" he said through laughs. "Because your sick" I said and he smirked and nodded. "I know" he said while shakin his head. "You know I still love you right" he said and I shrugged. "Never knew you did" I said. "Shit seaton don't. He still fuckin round wit Ashanti" he said and that made me think of what happened last night. "Okay" I said as I stood up. "I think you should go" I said and he stood up to. "I ain't goin nowhere" he said. I grabbed my phone and he grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him. "Until you give me what I want" he said. "I'm not giving you anything" I said and he threw my phone against the wall and it broke. "You not" he asked as he pushed me on the couch. "Please leave me alone" I said as the tears dropped. He laughed and spread my legs and I covered my face with my hands. He moved my hands. I stood up and threw punches at him. I knew I couldn't beat him up but I was gonna do anything to try to get out. His hand connected with my face and I fell to the ground. He got on the ground and took my pants off. "Tone stop" I yelled. he slid my panties off and I tried to move but he was too heavy ontop of me. He rammed his self into me making me cry out. "Please" I said through tears. "That nigga could never replace me. You understand. Fuck you and seaton. You mine" he said as he continued to ram his self inside me makin me cry even harder. "I'll leave seaton alone just please stop and let me go" I said through tears and he put his hand around my neck and squeezed as he continued to push his self in and out of me. I felt myself slipping in and out of consciousness when his fist connected with my face making my eyes open back. I felt the blood running down my nose and I felt the air hit my busted lip. He kissed my lips and he sped up and the tears continued to fall. He grunted and laid there and I knew he let his self go inside of me and the tears still fell. He kissed my lips then stood up and buckled his pants. "Don't forget what I said either bitch" he said and I slowly closed my eyes and I heard the door slam. I pushed my hair back and slowly lifted myself up because it hurted. I looked around the house and everything was blurry. I walked over to the mirror and my right eye was shut. I slowly walked upstairs as I wiped my tears away. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower and took my clothes off. I stared at myself in disgust than I got in the shower and lowered myself onto the ground as the water poured down on my hair and my body. The tears fell and I grabbed my towel and soap and scrubbed myself. I wanted to wash everything away. Life, anything bad I ever did, seaton , tone, my parents. Just everybody. At this moment I just wanna die. I got out 2 hours later and walked into the bed room. I wiped my tears away as I got dressed. I crawled into the bed and turned the light off and laid there staring at the ceiling as the tears continued to rush down my face. I felt disgusting, worthless, I felt like Shit. I wrapped myself in the cover and held myself as I drifted off to sleep.
