Exo & Lil Bit Of Suju Imagines [REQUEST CLOSED]

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Typo, grammatical errors ahead.

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"I'm sorry, but I'm afraid of us.

I walk to the nearest store to find him there. He always smiling, waiting for me as if he has nothing else to do. He is always there, even when I clearly told him, I don't need him. But it's him I'm talking about. He can't leave me alone. He's afraid of leaving me alone.

He waves his hand frantically to me as he get off of his bicycle and walk toward me fast. I just smile at him.

"Hey," he greets, breathing heavily as he try to catch his breath before continue, "what are you going to buy today?" He ask sweetly.

I can't help but smile at him, "nothing. I just come." I say, looking at his eyes before looking away, "I know you'll be here anyway."

He grins and ruffles my hair softly, "aigoo. This is why I like you." He says, making my heart literally stop and snap me with his question afterward, "do you like me?" He pokes my cheek.

I close my eyes, thinking the best answer to come up with before looking at him again, pinching his cheeks slightly as I grin, "of course I like you. You're my best friend, right?" I can't help but to crash his hopes.

I'm afraid. Afraid of what's gonna happen if us ever exist.

Don't try to have me, Let's just stay like this.

I try my best to stop the argument with him. It's ridiculous. He's angry as hell knowing I'm going out with my male friends. He freaks out and acts like he's my boyfriend. Like he's actually owned me. But I'm not! I'm not own by anyone, not him specifically. I don't want to be own by him. He's my best friend. I don't ㅡ no, I can't fall in love with him.

"Why are you so mad about me going out with him?!" I ask him angrily as he looks away, "it's even none of your concern if I really am dating him! It's my life! Don't try to own me, you're not my owner!" I shout at him but he never flinch.

I cover my face with my hands, making my palms wet from the tears I made. I never want to shout, yell at him like this. But I just thought that he's just too much. I'm not his sister, nor his lover.

I feel like being pull into a warm embrace and I know it's him. He place his chin on my head while his hands stroke my hair and back. He then move closer to my ears, whispering something that making my heart clench in pain.

"You're making it more painful, why?"

Because I don't want to make your heart breaks into pieces when I leave you. I'm not that person who you can trust. I call you best friend and you call me that too, but you don't know me yet. You shouldn't trust me fully just yet. I'm going to leave, and making you crying. You're the last person I want to do bad things to. You never know when tomorrow comes and when it comes, you might see who is the real me.

But tonight, I want you to stay.

I sit beside him on the rooftop, looking at the stars. Stargazing is the best thing to do in life. He looks at me, didn't even care to take his eyes off me. I glance at him when he leans closer, still look at my face. I chuckle and place my hand on his chest, pushing him away.

"What are you doing?" I ask, still chuckling.

"Nothing," he says, still looking at me. "You're more beautiful under this starlight." He leans closer and now his nose is in my hair, making me giggle.

"Idiot. I'm not beautiful." I say and I back away from him, still trying to push him away and he finally give up, straighten his back. But now, he's sitting on my direction, fully looking at me.

"Come, eat." He says motion me to come closer and look at him.

I take a small bread to eat when he intensely look at me and pout his lips. I laugh at his reaction and I slap his lips slowly with my free hand. He then widen his eyes, warning me that he's gonna bite my hand and I stick my tongue out a bit before continue eating the bread.

I might don't want you in my life but you're already my half. And tonight, I want you to stay. Because we're so happy as we're right now.

Let's not fall in love, we don't know each other very well yet
Actually, I'm a little scared, I'm sorry
Let's not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

It's probably the cruelest thing that I've done to you. I don't wanna you to fall in love with me. Because I know, someday I'll leave you. Like I said before, you're the last person I'm going to hurt. I'm not going to let you cry for my sake, unless it's really necessary.

I'm sorry, I never make any promises to you like how you asked me to promise you that we'll be best friends until we die because I know I'll go first before you, and I'll break the promise.

I'm sorry I show that I don't know how your feelings for me. Even when I know that feelings perfectly. I know everything. But if I, too, get attached to you, I'll get sad. And I'm afraid, your smiles ㅡ your beautiful smile that lighten my world would turn to tears. And I can't bear seeing you crying.

I'm sorry, let's not fall in love. So you won't cry at my funeral."

He read the book and place it on his table, crying for nth times since the day he got the book. He keeps reading your story, knowing your real reason on why you kept yourself distance and avoided every promises he try his hard for you to make. He knows now. He knows now that you knew you're going to leave him.

In the most sad, cruel and harsh way.

You're gone.

And his heart too.

Along with you.

♥

Hey there loveliest.
Freak, I'm bored. I'm so freaking bored, seriously.
I'm in school, having talks about "Being a Tourist Guide" or something and I've been asleep for a while in this hall, crossed-legs, alright?
And my waist broken ]=]
I love my school ^^
Okay bye.