Exo & Lil Bit Of Suju Imagines [REQUEST CLOSED]

Can't Love You Anymore ; Heechul

You sit at the table, waiting for a person who is supposed to be meeting you now. You look at your clock and your heart beats faster than you thought. You never thought that it would be this nervous. You sip your orange juice and waiting for him patiently. You look around and there is no sign of him; probably because you are here 30 minutes earlier than as promised.

While you are waiting for him, you look at your phone and on the screen, there's about four messages from your best friend.

"What are you even talking about?"

"You were the one who loved him so bad before!"

"Why now?"

"Wait, don't answer. I can't even process anything you said before."

Yes, true. Today is the day where you are going to say your true feelings for him now. You know you are being hasty, but you have kept this alone for months. You kept trying to give the both of you chance to fix this. You kept giving your heart a chance to change its decision back. But probably you can't. Though you don't really want to give up, you don't really want to torture his and your heart too.

You thought that he is your last love when you loved him so much that you thought you couldn't live without him. You thought he is the last guy for you in this life. But it was just probably your thought and it cannot be true sometimes.

You startle when someone sit in front of you and when you look up, you can see his smiley face. But you look straight into his eyes, it seem like something is totally bothering him too.

"You're here early?" He smiles, going through the menu and order the food while you just shake your head when the waiter look at you.

"Well, I was window shopping around here too." You lie. It is a white lie that he should have known.

He laughs and look at his phone, "so, what is it you want to talk about?"

You stare at him and he, looking as fancy as always, never fails make all the women in the restaurant to turn and look at him. "Let's have you finish your food first." You smile.

His order comes up and he eats it quietly while you are scrolling your instagram. You are still trying to figure out how to say it to him. You need to find the right words to say it without hurting his heart.

He puts away the spoon and fork when he has already done. He looks at you, anticipating what you are going to say to him. You look at him without any smile.

"Hey, Hee... I just wanna ask you something. And promised me that you'll answer this honestly."

He looks at you with curiosity but he nods anyway.

"When I left you alone, ignored you, didn't really reply to your texts and calls, don't you feel anything? Are you even happy with me anymore?" You ask him straightforwardly.

He chuckles, sound almost nervously. "What are you asking me now?" Heechul tries to avoid to answer you that. "Why now?" He mutters that under his breath and you managed to hear that.

"Because I don't want to hurt you more."

It was simple, but bold statement. He stays silent for a good few minutes. He does not say anything and he just looks straight at the table. Probably thinking the words he is supposed to say.

"Is it okay if I say this?" He talks suddenly.

You nod softly, "say it. I don't get hurt now."

"Honestly.." He looks at you, "I don't feel anything. It is hard for me to realise that I don't feel anything anymore. It doesn't hurt me. It doesn't make me feel lonely. But somehow I feel stress when I force myself to trust that I still love you." He says it with vibrating voice.

You look at him, with a straight face and finally form a smile.

"So, in the other word, you don't love me anymore?" You ask softly.

"I don't want to acknowledge this feeling."

"I can't do anything about it, Hee. We both feel the same way." You look at him and he looks straight in your eyes.

"What?" He asks you, disbelief at what he just heard.

You smile, "the reason why I left you alone, ignored you, was because I want you to not love me anymore. And it seems like that worked."

"So, you are telling me now that--?"

"We should part ways." You cut him off.

He stuns. He does not look like he is about to cry and so do you. He bite his lower lip. "I didn't want to acknowledge that I don't love you anymore. I want to hope that one day I can still walk side by side, holding hands with you and be happy again." He says softly.

"The feeling is mutual, Hee. There is nothing you shouldn't acknowledge. You aren't supposed to hurt yourself too." You say softly and look at him. "Let's part ways and still be friend, Hee." You say slowly. "I can't lose my best friend anyway." You continue.

He sigh and smile at you, "sure. I don't plan to cut off our friendship too." He says cheerfully. "So, is this where we'll say our goodbyes?"

You smile, "Yes, it seems like it."

"Then-"

"Promise me, Hee. Take care of yourself. Don't overwork yourself and take your medicine when you are feeling sick. Don't skip your meal. Make sure you stay happy and healthy!" How selfish you are. Asking him to be happy when you know there is a little space of his heart will be broken.

Like yours.

"Good advice," He laughs. "You too. Take care and be careful. Don't skip meals and be happy too." As he says that he gets off of that chair and walk away.

You breathe heavily as soon as he walks away as if you held them back all these while. Without even realising it, your tear fall and you form a smile. You remembered his words before.

"I will try to make you love me harder even when you are falling out of it."

And here you are, bidding your last farewell with him. You chuckle and wipe your tears.

You take your phone and type a message to your best friend.

"Breaking news. He doesn't love me anymore."

"Well, this is what i wanted but why the hell i'm crying now xD"

"I guess, 3 years aint that short to just forget about it in a split of seconds."

And really, three years are not a short period of time.

You should have known that you can't love him anymore no matter how you wanted to stay.

It is just..

Not here anymore.