Too much to lose

Tonight I'm leaving

sorry that this chapter is so similar to the last one just trying to get some good falshbacks in. big surprise in store next chapter i promise!

We had been staying at the house for a few days when Jake asked the question I'd been dreading. 

"What's in here?" He gestured to the bedroom opposite mine. 

"Spare room" I replied nonchalantly. It hurt to lie to him but I knew seeing what was inside would just hurt him even more. Everything was as she had left it. I had only moved a few hoodies that were still filled with her sweet scent. She had never come back to collect anything and I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it. 

He seemed satisfied with my explanation and didn't push me any further. 

"Breakfast?" He changed the subject and I nodded in agreement. He walked down the winding staircase leaving me alone to stare at the closed door.

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"Ready?" I asked again trying to navigate my way up the stairs and lead a blindfolded Jenny at the same time. 

"What are we doing?" She smiled. 

"You'll see" I replied grinning at her only to realise she couldn't see me. I opened the door to the guest bedroom that I had spent all weekend converting into her decoy room.

"Surprise" I smiled removing her blindfold. She was speechless. 

"How did y-" she stopped, taking in my work.

"Thank you" she smiled at me almost tearing up. 

"Dot get soppy on me" I teased. She hugged me tightly. 

"I love you" she whispered and I was caught off guard for a moment. 

"I- I love you too" I spluttered out before wrapping my arms around her middle and returning her hug. 

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I shook my head sharply trying to rid myself of the memory. I had to stop living in the past. Being back at the old house was making it worse. After breakfast I offered my solution. 

"The airport is ages away" I stated. "There's a hotel not far from it; we could go there before we fly" 

"Yeah, we could do that" he seemed uninterested. 

"I've already got my stuff together" I reminded him. 

"You want to go to New York right away?" He seemed more excited now. 

"That would be good" I smiled back. 

"Sure" he grinned. "As soon as you want" 

"How about tonight?" I asked and we were booking the flights.