Like I'm gonna lose you (Clawen)

Missed Calls

OWEN'S POV

I was so angry. I was frustrated with myself. I was angry at Claire. I couldn't believe she threw her engagement ring at me. Claire was hard to read at the best of time. She shouldn't of sprung those questions upon me so suddenly. I still loved her but I had ruined it. I had upset Claire and she had upset me. I knew she was probably crying right now. I rested my head against the steering wheel. I walked out the car and checked into the hotel. I spread myself out like a starfish on the bed. I stared up at the ceiling. I'm such as screw up. I check my phone hoping for a message from Claire. Much to my disappointment there wasn't. A small smile crept on my face as looked at my lock screen. It was a silly selfie Claire and I had taken a while back. I'm such and idiot. I decided to call Claire I had to speak to her. Beep beep...beep beep. There was no answer, I tried again still no answer. I kept on trying for half an hour but still no answer. Maybe she didn't want to hear my voice, so I decided to text her.
Owen: Claire, baby please talk 2 me xxxxxxxxx I'm so sorry xxxxxxxx
Claire pick up
I'm sorry
I still love you
Claire I need to hear your voice xxxx

She had obviously turned her off. I really wanted Claire to marry me but I wasn't sure if that was going to happen now. I decided to get some sleep but it felt weird with an empty space next to me.

I woke up and opened my eyes to the engagement ring on an unfamiliar bed side table. I cringed. I was hoping that last night was a dream. I grudgingly got ready for work. Going to work meant I had to see Claire and I wasn't sure if I was ready to talk to her yet. To be honest I wasn't sure if she even wanted to talk to me. I drove to work slowly, I was worried how Claire would act and what would everyone else think. I got out of my car, I hadn't noticed Claire's car in the car park. I was slightly relieved that she wasn't here and slightly anxious. I went straight to the dolphin paddock to find my co-worker Harry, feeding them breakfast. Today we were meant to do a lot of paperwork, which meant delivering it to Claire. I struggled to concentrate, I couldn't get Claire off my mind.

Just before lunch Harry went home sick. Just great. That meant that I definitely had to take the papers to Claire. I had my lunch before reluctantly heading up to the control centre. As I headed up in the elevator I started getting anxious. The doors dinged opened. No sign of Claire, she must be in her office. "Hey, Owen, where's Claire today?" Lowery asked as I walked past. I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around to face him. "I, errm...Claire didn't feel well again" I prayed that Lowery couldn't tell that I was lying straight through my teeth. "Oh, I hope she gets better soon" he said concerned. "I'll let her know, but could you put these in Claire's pile for me please" I asked before swiftly leaving. As I went back down in the elevator, I thought kind of guilty about lying to Lowery. I knew Claire wasn't well yesterday but I thought she would of been better by now. As she got a whole day of rest. I was kind of worried about her. I decided to send Claire a text, not that she was going to reply.
Owen: Hey, how comes u r not at work 2day¿?¿ hope u r ok xx

As I finished all the paperwork, I got in the tank to continue training with my dolphins. In hope that it would distract me from the events of last night. However it didn't, it just made me think about it even more especially as I named one of the dolphins Claire. Pleased with the progress I had made with the dolphins, I decided to call it a day. I check my phone, no new notifications. Claire hadn't replied. I headed back to hotel. I really missed Claire, she was everything to me but I had screwed things up big time. In desperation I tried phoning her again. I had no idea how to fix this. I had gotten myself into a ridiculously big mess. It wasn't like I had forgotten to put the toilet seat down; it was going to take a lot more than I'm sorry to fix this one. I was fumbling with the engagement ring my hand. Does Claire really mean it's over, I know she threw the ring at me but she hasn't been herself lately. I sighed. I knew I was just trying to kid myself, praying that everything would be back to how they were before. I have never been so stressed out in my life and it was so tiring. My eyelids soon became heavy and everything went black.

CLAIRE'S POV

I didn't go into work today. I couldn't face anyone, especially Owen. I was so scared, what if he never came back. I couldn't help but think negative thoughts that made me cry. I turned my phone off last night, I don't think I'm able to talk to anyone. I was so stupid for throwing the ring at him. I missed Owen so much, I still loved him and I needed him. I had been crying all day when I decided enough was enough. I switched my phone on. 11 missed calls and 9 messages from Karen. I couldn't tell her what happened, she would just freak. I had 54 missed calls from Owen and 36 messages. My heart skipped a beat. He still cared. I couldn't take it anymore and clicked call next to Owen's name. Beep beep...beep beep. Answer phone, my heart broke. I decided to leave a message. "Owen...I need you" I croaked before bursting into tears. I hung up as quickly as I could.

A/N: I know you guys probably hate me right now. I try to get another update soon. I have just down another typing frenzy. I hoped you enjoy it.
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