Like I'm gonna lose you (Clawen)

Sorry

OWEN'S POV

I laid flat on my black, staring up at the ceiling. The same thought had been playing in my head over and over again
How could I have been so stupid.
I checked my phone the time was 03:14am. I should really be trying but I couldn't, I just felt so guilty about Claire. I closed my eyes and listened to the silence. I shot my eyes opens, I heard someone creaking down the stairs. It was Claire. I closed my eyes because she probably didn't want to talk or see me again. I could hear her breathing unevenly from the doorway. I heard her tiptoe back into the hallway, I wonder what that was about. I heard the stairs creak again but only once, I guess she must of sat down. Beep beep... Beep beep. Who was Claire calling at this time of night. "Karen?" Her voice was shaking. "It's Owen" she sobbed, "we, we kinda had a fight" I strained my ears to listen. I missed half of what she was saying as I was struggling to focus my ears. "Karen, I love him" Claire spoke. "I thought he, he loved me back" She choked out. Claire burst into tears and I guessed that she hung up the phone. "I do" I whispered quietly to myself. I heard Claire get up walk back to the doorway of the lounge. She tiptoed over to the couch and sat on the floor, resting head against where my feet were. "Look what you've done to me, Owen, I'm a mess." Claire hiccuped. I was so confused I didn't want to make Claire more upset. I desperately wanted to comfort her but something told that telling her I was awake this whole time was a terrible idea. I felt her get up and stand over me. Claire's soft breath tickled my face, she planted a soft kiss on my lips before going back upstairs.

I now know that she doesn't completely hate me. However I still had to think about how to fix this mess because I wasn't out of the woods yet. That's it I thought sitting up. There was a piano in one of the rooms downstairs, the owners had left it here. I remembered how Claire told me that she wanted to hear me play. I would write her a song. I tiptoed to cupboard to grab some paper and a pen. I was careful not to make any noise as I entered the piano room. I must of been writing and tinkering on the piano for at least 2 hours. The sun was trying to peep through the curtains as I wrote the last line; but I love it, but I love it oh. I smiled pleased with myself. I decided to go back to the couch, I was completely drained. I figure it would be a few more hours before Claire would get up. So I tried to get some sleep with the little time I had.

I woke up feeling slightly more refreshed but then my headache started to kick in. I knew those shots were a bad idea. I got up to go get some coffee and aspirin. As I was still half asleep whilst walking to the kitchen, when I heard gagging noises from upstairs. I sprinted up the stairs to find Claire. I rushed in the her en suite, to find her hunched over the toilet. "Oh Claire" I gasped crouching down. I held her hair away from her face and rubbed her back. Claire threw up a few more times before collapsing onto me. She looked so pale and vulnerable. "Babe, I'm so sorry about last night. I was so stupid, please forgive me" my voice was cracking slightly. I wouldn't know what I'd do without Claire. "Could I have some water please" she stuttered out. I swept her up and placed her back in bed. I jogged down the stairs to get Claire some water. "Here you go" I said handing her the glass. I sat at the edge of the bed and put my head in my hands. "W..why did you forget about me?" Claire's voice was shaking.
"Claire, I, I honestly don't know what to say" I stammered lifting my head up. "I'm so stupid and useless, you deserve much better than me" I didn't dare turn around. "I was up most of the night, I couldn't stop thinking about how I must of hurt you. I, I wrote you a song because I Love You" I was rambling, I needed Claire to forgive me. There was silence. Frustrated I put my head back in my hands.
"Owen, I, I don't know anymore" Claire whispered quietly. My eyes began to fill with water. Oh god? what is she doing to me, I blinked it away because I don't cry. "Owen" Claire croaked before bursting into tears. "Oh baby" I said gently. I held Claire tight against me whilst she sobbed her heart out.

Claire stopped crying after a few minutes. "Owen, do you love me?" Claire hiccuped. "Of course, I do. You have all of my love" I whispered in her ear. "I, I couldn't sleep without you last night" her voice was so soft. "I would never do anything to hurt you, you know that right?" I said. "Please don't leave me" Claire spoke so quietly I barely heard her. "I promise I won't" I said lifting her head up, so I could see her crystal eyes. Claire looked like a tiny doll, I had broken her. The Claire Dearing I know was independent and confident. She looked so sweet and innocent. I had messed her about with her feelings. Now look at her. "I'm so sorry" I said resting my forehead against hers. "I forgive you" Claire whispered.

A/N: Hey guys, I will try to make the chapters roughly this length. The next chapter might take a little longer as I've gotta do some homework before my summer ends :((( and I gotta to figure out what put in it. Going off topic I don't know if you heard but one direction are splitting in March 😭😭😭😭😭
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