I wake up to feel warm arms around me, I smile as I know it's Ethan as I feel the light sparks across my body. It's very comforting as I lay there completely relaxed. I slowly turn around to face him as I look up to his face glowing in the light from the moon.
He's so beautiful
He looks so peaceful as he lays there with his lips slightly parted. I've been wanting to do this since the moment I saw it.. I reach up and trace my finger on the long scar down the side of his face.
He slightly frowns as My hand freezes as I don't even take a breath. I watch on but he makes no other move.
Please don't wake up..as I wait for his face to relax again
It looks rough on the eyes but as I touch it I can feel the smoothness of his skin. I rest back as I watch him sleeping so peacefully
Will we ever be happy and comfortable with each other? I have seen with so many mates before the love and happiness they share. I think back on how careful I have to be with him as i constantly have to tip toe around his emotions.
I look back out the window as I lay there in his arms enjoying the quiet and relaxed feeling I have right now.
As I look out the window i start feeling restless, I can't bring myself to go back to sleep and I know it's because I'm missing my runs. I never usually miss my night runs and I don't plan on starting. It's been long enough.
I slowly lift his arm off me and and slide out carefully from under the sheets. Pausing to make sure I didn't wake him.
But how can I leave when I run the risk of getting into trouble again. I stand there trying to think of how I am going to do this.
I walk over to the table with the phone on it as I see both Ethan's phone and Mine sitting next to it.
I reach for Ethan's phone as I unlock it and open his contacts
I search through till I find Sean's number. there's so many numbers. Who has this many numbers? Shit he knows a lot of people. A lot of them are just initials with the random names here and there. I briefly wonder how he tells them apart. I eventually make it to the S as I come across the name Sean hoping this is the Sean I want. Should I call him? He did say to let him know if I was going to be out there.. I look back at Ethan laying there he hasn't moved an inch as I then turn and leave the room softly closing the door behind me.
I walk to the kitchen and rest against the bench as I stare down at Sean's name on the phone, I hit call on the phone as I stand there tapping the bench with my fingers as I listen to it ringing
The phone rings out ending the call
Great.
what am I suppose to do now, I really don't want to wake him up as much as I want to go back and lay with him I don't want any more conflict and my urge to go running is over ruling me at the moment.
I breathe out as I place the phone on the table and turn to the fridge as I grab out a water bottle taking a sip I stare back at the phone.
Shit it's 4.30am he's probably sleeping, having the time finally hit me.
I leave the phone there and head over to the glass doors as I push it open and closing it softly behind me with a click.
I walk slowly looking around me as it seems a little darker out here, I head down the path and spot the chair looking out over the lake.
I take a seat and rest back in the chair as I adjust my eyes to see the view in front of me. The warm air is comforting as I rest my head back and watch the moon above.
