I tap my fingers on the table as I look around the kitchen.
Another day
I get up from the stool upon hearing a knock and head to the door.
"Hey"
"Hey"
Closing the door behind him I head into the kitchen and sit back down on the stool I now spend most my time on.
"You gotta stop this Mia"
I stare at the table
"He's getting better his body is healing he's improving" his voice is gentle and I don't like it
I'm tired of it
"It's been 3 weeks Jason you have been telling me the same shit for 3 weeks!" My words coming out more angrily than I intended
He sighs as I feel him take a seat next to me. The one Ethan use to sit on when he was here.
"You have responsibilities.. There's only so much I can do.." His voice is strained and cautious
I lower my head, I don't know how to be a Luna, I never expected to do this on my own.
"I know I'm sorry I really am" I say softly
It isn't Jason's fault if anything I owe him everything. It was Jason that convinced alpha Hanes who than had alpha Reeves bring there packs to help. If it wasn't for him than they would have been planning an attack against us and for that I'm more than great full but
"It just feels like since I got here everything I touch turns to shit"
"There's been nothing but chaos and to top that off there was always this wall between Ethan and I .. Yes I'm fallen moons Luna but Jason I have no idea what the hell I'm doing" my words coming out in frustration
"You have been doing fine considering the events that have happened but I'm swamped with training and border control and the amount of paper work in that dam office is driving me insane" he says lowering his head into his hands
I'm stuffing this up big time, maybe it is all because of me I'm just a walking disaster how did my world get turned upside down so badly.
"I'm sorry I'll snap out of it I didn't realise I'm sorry" I say as guilt begins to fill me
I didn't even think how much pressure has been thrown onto him. While I sit here in my self pity, Jason's been out there trying to hold everything together the best he knows how.
"By the time I get home I'm to exhausted to even talk with Chloe it's affecting our relationship She thinks something's wrong I don't even know what to do.. she's stopped talking to me 2 days ago Mia .. 2 days!" He says running his hands through his hair
I sigh, this is all my fault I've been nothing but a zombie since that day. Seeing Ethan not moving tore my heart out I wasn't even sure he was going to make it.
"I'll take most of the work load leave the paperwork to me have Liam run the roster for patrol and you just focus on the training ok" I say firmly as I stand to my feet
It's time I grow up and stop moping it's done no good so far
He leans back as his head looks to heavy for him to hold, he's exhausted. The dark circles under his hooded eyes why did I not notice, because of my stupid pity party that's why
