MeryemBelf
Pairing: EunTeuk
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Hyukjae squeezed his eyes shut and crossed his fingers under the desk. He sincerely waited for the teacher to say his name followed by the one of 'Park Jeong-su'.
It had been four months since they started school, four months since he started being Leeteuk's –another name the guy like to be called with- classmate and four months since he started crushing on him.
Hyukjae wasn't sure if at this rate he was still crushing or if he had already reached the stage of him falling, and hard. Deep inside of him, he knew he was already there for two months now, he just couldn't admit it.
It wasn't that he is not used to being attracted to guys –no he had known he liked guys since an early age-, but it was because he tried not to get too deep into whatever he was feeling for the other. It got to the stage where he couldn't say the word 'love' anymore, fearing the fact of getting stuck to it.
It didn't take long for him to love the other –although he preferred to call it 'attraction-. Let's try again; it didn't take long for him to get attracted to the other. Jeong-su was a cheerful guy that liked to laugh, make jokes and hang out with a lot of people –thing that discouraged hyukjae from going to him and star a conversation-.
Yeah, they never talked –besides those rare moments where leeteuk would ask him for a pen or something simple as that-. He wasn't unhappy with it though. He liked the fact that they weren't that close, because then it could only get harder on him.
It was all good for him that the other didn't care much about him. Hyukjae could sit there and look at him all he wants –before getting cut by someone and averting his gaze-. He could squeak whenever he wants and no one would know that it was because leeteuk did something cute.
It was a total freedom, well, until his only friend found out about him. Kyuhyun wasn't freaked out though; the latter liked a guy himself –and hyukjae was thankful to the skies that it turned out that way-.
Now kyu wasn't someone 'nice' as everyone thinks, he was the son of Satan if not Satan himself and hyukjae wouldn't say something like that lightly. He knew exactly what he was talking about.
Kyu would threaten him to tell everything to leeteuk if he doesn't do something the latter wanted. Hyukjae didn't even know how Kyuhyun ended up one of the many friends of his crush. But then he knew that the guy his friend is attracted to –sungmin- was one of the close friends of leeteuk.
He never got the courage to go over to their table at lunch and just hang out with them. He never got the courage to go out with them whenever Kyuhyun suggested so.
His friend had always told him that it was okay and that leeteuk wouldn't eat him –unless he wanted to be eaten by the other, and this is a useless mean add his friend would tease him with-. Yet, hyukjae never got the courage to even talk to leeteuk.
"Park Jeong-su" Hyukjae's ear captured the sound of the name and got out of the tornado of thoughts that somehow pulled him. He looked around and saw people looking at him but then quickly getting disinterested. He waited for the teacher to say the other name but it never came.
Hyukjae felt a tug on his shirt and turned around to his friend, a frown on his face. "Hey, aren't you excited?" He heard kyu say and the frown got deeper. "Why would I be?" He asked and he saw as the other tried hard not to laugh at him.
"I see you were deeply thinking about someone again" Kyuhyun said and hyukjae yelped and slapped his hand.
"Are you nuts? Someone might hear?" He said and the other shrugged.