Scared of Love || Lauren/You

Chapter 5

Lauren's POV

After when i saw Y/N run away i was about to run after her but the girls stopped me "Where are you going huh Lauren?" they started flirting with me, i glared at Hope since i saw her spilled the coffee in Y/N's clothes. "Why the fuck did you do that?!" i said angrily she looked at me scared her friends then came to us "Why was she hanging out with you?" Chloe said she was one of her friends "Because she's my friend idiot!" i said pushing her shoulders. "You apologize to her!" i shouted at Hope's face making her look at me really scared "I'm s-sorry... i didn't know" i then pushed her and pushed my way out of the classroom. I then started looking for Y/N, shit where is she?! I pulled out my phone and started calling her phone but it went straight to voicemail. FUCK! i then started asking people if they saw Y/N but no one really saw her. I sighed and kept looking for her.

It was already second period and i saw Camila and Dinah walking together so i ran to them "Oh hey Lauren" they greeted but they frowned when they saw my face "Y/N......i can't find her" i said breathlessly Camila glared at me "What did you do?!" i rolled my eyes "I didn't do anything genius! Hope and her friends started teasing her! and Hope spilled her coffee on her clothes!" i said angrily and they were taken aback. "I'm sorry" she said i nodded i was so pissed and i needed to calm down but that only works if Y/N was here, "come we'll help you" Dinah said i nodded and we began searching for her all around the school but sneakily since we didn't want to get in trouble. But for me, i didn't really care i didn't sneak or something i just really didn't care i could explain why to my dad anyway.

It was lunch already and the girls and i were still searching but she was not there "Lauren she's not here in school" Ally said looking at me sadly "Where is she?!" i whine we all tried calling her cellphone but she never picks up. "Her home" i said and then they all looked at me "Her home" i repeated and then we all rushed to our cars and drove to her house, there were no cars in front of her house which means her parents aren't home. I knock on the door and i was hoping that she'll answer it, after a few minutes the door open revealing a sad cute Y/N, sorry... well cute because she was on her onesie okay shut up Lauren this is serious. "Why are you guys here?" she asked "why did you leave school?" i asked she shrug we then entered her house she closed the door and looked down, she sighed and the girls hugged her. "We heard what happened" Camila said Y/N nodded and looked at her sadly "I don't know what i did wrong" she said pouting they nodded "They're just bitches" Dinah said hugging Y/N, and then the girls looked at me.

I walk to her and the girls let her go, she looked at me slowly and i hugged her tight making her cry on my shoulder "What did i do?" she asked softly i shake my head "you didn't do anything" i said and kissed her head. "Why do they hate me?" the girls were looking at us sadly "just ignore them okay? they're just immature bitches" i said "We're for you" i said softly in her ear "I'm...here for you" i whispered she sniffled and buried her face to my neck "Thank you" she whispered i nodded and i look at the girls. "We'll catch up later" Camila said hugging Y/N and i and the girls left her house leaving me with Y/N, "come on tell me what happened before that" i said she nodded and we walked to the living room. She sighed and wipe her eyes and i rub her arm "Well when they saw us walking inside the classroom together they were glaring at me, so when you started talking with the guys one girl started talking shit about me. She said that why would you hang out with a dork like me? she said that my clothes were unfashionable and they called me an ugly loser" she said fake smiling. "It's just my second day and i'm receiving hates" she nodding "Wonderful" she said sighing.

"Then the girl with blonde hair spilled the coffee in my clothes and the class were filled with laughter so i felt really humiliated because i've never experienced that before. I've never experienced coffee all over my clothes and trust me it felt weird" she said looking at me she then looked confused probably because my face was full of anger. I don't know i was just so pissed at Hope, i mean she always does bad things to people and i usually ignore it but this time she teased the wrong girl because the girl she teased was the girl i care about so she might have to go through me first. "Lauren...calm down" Y/N said softly she was rubbing my arms i sighed and close my eyes she then rubbed my fists making it relax and she slipped her hand to mine and intertwine our fingers making me calm down. I opened my eyes and she smiled when she saw my face relaxed, "it's okay i'll just ignore her okay?" she said smiling at me. I shake my head "When she gets to you i would be beside you and punch her for you" she shake her head "Lauren...please no more punching or fighting please? i don't want you to get in trouble" she said pouting.

"But Y/N i can't help it when i'm mad or pissed" i whine she smile "i'll try and calm you down then" i smile and hug her "Still, i'll be beside you" i said she smiled and giggled "okay" i sighed and just hugged her. "You look really cute in that onesie by the way" i said she looked at me and smiled "Really? i feel like it's too childish" i shake my head "It's really cute" i said looking at her onesie, she smiled and sighed "Are you hungry?" i nodded "yeah i didn't really eat lunch ever since you've ran away i kept looking for you" she frown "So you didn't eat?" i nodded "Lauren...you should have ate" i shake my head "No, i didn't know where you were and i didn't want anything bad happening to you so i kept looking" i said frowning i saw her blush but she hid it "Alright, i'll make you lunch" she said smiling. "Stay here my parents are at work anyway" she said i nodded and she gave me the TV remote "Watch something" she said and she walked away.

I sighed and started changing the channel, as i change the channel i began thinking about her. Am i starting to like her? No no no..... i can't, i can't be in a relationship. I mean i do love her as a friend yes! like the girls but when it comes to her it feels different oh shit. No i just love admiring her... and i care about her...that's it. I'll be like her friend, sister, and bodyguard not something in a relationship. I mean i can't...because i'm..i'm..scared she might hurt me. I'm scared of love. I can't love anyone more than a friend they're all equal well i do love my father and my mother..... i sighed when i remembered my mom. That time i love loving people, mom always tells me to go find love and be free to like someone so i did, that's where i found Brad. I thought he loved be but he just cheated on me and started beating me up, years later i found another guy guess what he just played me... oh yes he is still in our school. You all know him, it's Luis Santos. Yup, him and his buddies played me, he said he loved me so much but looks like i was the fool who believed it.

I also got beatings from him and ended up in the hospital, yeah i was so tired of love because love can hurt you, i've been hurt a lot of times now. My past relationships were so bad, all the beatings the shouting, i'm tired of that i don't want to be treated like that again. So yeah i came out as a strong woman now, i only choose who i love, the ones i only trust the ones i knew better and if one of them lied they'll be forgotten. I just hate people lying to me, not like Camila stealing a banana from my kitchen and said she didn't get one not those kinds but you know what i mean. Those are the things i hate, i also hate people playing me i just fucking hate that so fucking much. That always pisses me off, i was then interrupted by Y/N calling me, i look up and saw her holding a plate, "i didn't know what you want so i just made you macaroni and cheese" she said sitting next to me i smile at her "Thank you so much, it actually looks delicious" i said sniffing it. Well it smells delicious too.

"Well i hope you enjoy it" i nodded "I will" i said scooping a full spoon and placed it in my mouth making Y/N laugh and smile at me, and honestly it is good! holy shit! this woman can cook! i moaned at the taste and she just stared at me "You're really good" i said nodding sh chuckled "Really?" i nodded and scooped some and placed it in front of her mouth. I saw her bit her lip "come on try your macaroni and cheese" i said she sighed and ate it, as she chew it she nodded "yeah it is" i laugh at her reaction "I'm gonna get my own" i chuckled and she got up to get her own. She got back and started eating with me as we watch Paper Towns, minutes later i finished my food and i wanted more, i look over to Y/N and she was still eating. I placed my bowl down and crawl next to her she looked at me "what?" she asked i smile at her cutely and bat my eyes "you want more?" i nodded "Pleaseee?" she giggled and shift herself on the couch making her face go near mine but good thing she wasn't looking.

She faced me and she fed me some of her food making me smile "Thank you" i said she giggled and fed me spoonful of macaroni "mmhh... too much" i mumble covering my mouth she laughed and kissed my cheek unexpectedly. I stare at her and i think i'm blushing but good thing she was looking at the TV, it would be embarrassing if she was looking at me because i really look like an idiot. With macaroni inside my mouth that makes my cheeks bigger and with my staring at her while blushing. I finished the food and swallowed it, am i falling for her? i really can't.....