Scared of Love || Lauren/You

Chapter 27

Your POV

As i walk to my fourth class which was PE i went to the gym lockers and saw Lauren, it was just her since everybody was already outside. I gulped and walk to her she look at me but look away again she then started walking away but i pulled her back and did something i don't regret, she gasped and tried pushing me away but i wouldn't budge. Yes, i kissed her i had to, i can't control my feelings now i wanted her to know that i love her i wanted to be honest, suddenly she pushed me away and i did "Y/N! WHY?!" i sighed and look down "I'm sorry, Lauren i should tell you the truth....i'm in love with you" she shake her head "No Y/N please don't say that! You can't be in love with me! it's impossible" she groaned "Lauren, you don't understand it's possible to be in love! I can't help my feelings anymore that's why i had to kiss you" she was breathing heavily. "Y/N no, i don't have feelings for you" she said her voice cracked "Really? cause you were acting like you have, you kept saying you cared about me or you always admire me" she bit her lip.

"Please Y/N don't do this, you can't be in love with me" i shake my head "I already am Lauren" she took a deep breath and walked away "You're scared of being in love" i said and she stopped walking and slowly turn to me. "How do you know?" she asked quietly "You keep trying to stay away from me" i said my eyes are getting watery again she stayed quiet "Lauren...you don't have to be scared of love" i said walking to her. Her eyes then began watering too "But...i a-am" she stutter i shake my head "you don't have to be scared, Lauren the guys you dated before is now in the past. Brad and Luis are now your past and i know how rough your past is but you have to look forward to your future and let the past go" i said cupping her cheeks. She then started crying "it's just...e-very t-time...i feel like i'm in love it r-reminds me of them and then i feel scared because i remember the times when i was in the hospital" i gulped and hug her. "Lauren you know i'm not like them" i cooed in her ear "i know but...i don't want to be heart broken again" i shake my head "Lauren it's part of love, you get heart broken but you and your partner will fix it and will be happy again" i said looking at her watery eyes.

"But Brad and i or Luis and i didn't had a happy ending" she said frowning "Well because Lauren you chose the wrong person, choose someone who you really love. Who makes you feel happy and jealous when they're with somebody. Who cares about you, Lauren it depends on the person you date. You dated two wrong guys and you have to keep looking for the right one, the person who is the one for you, because everyone deserves to have someone who loves them back. No one should be alone in this world" i said she bit her lip and i wipe her tears away. I then felt my heart fall "and i think it's Destiny" i said quietly i slowly let my hands go to my sides and she look at my eyes "I know you stole my first kiss but....Lauren it felt so amazing and magical. At first i was so happy because the girl i'm in love with kissed me, and i felt butterflies on my stomach i even saw Cupid shooting an arrow at us. But ever since you started freaking out and said you shouldn't have done that it crushed me, i started to think you regretted it. Like you didn't like me so that means i didn't have a chance with you" i said sighing she was there staring and listening to me so i continued.

"Seeing you kiss Destiny hours ago crushed me, do you know the feeling seeing someone you love just kisses someone else?" she nodded "With Brad right? you remembered the day he was making love to another girl and you felt heartbroken" she nodded again "That's how i feel, i'm heartbroken but here i am still looking forward. But if i really don't have a chance with you Lauren then i must move on, i really want to find the one for me" i said sighing she cup my cheeks and wiped my eyes and i closed my eyes sighing deeply. "So you don't have to be scared Lauren, being heart broken is part of love and sometimes something good will happen next you just have to look forward and wait" she stayed silent but kept her eyes on me "So yeah Lauren i'm in love with you but i know you might like Destiny more so i'm gonna let you go and i'll find my own person who really needs me, wants me, and loves me" i said before leaving a kiss on her lips this time she kissed back but i pulled away before she did. I smiled at her sadly and walked away.