My Right Hand 2

Aleah

We walk into the hospital and see August. What the hell this nigga done did? Grandma Francis is watching the twins and the girls. I really didn't want to leave them but he'd do the same for me. "What did you do?" "Man I don't know how I ended up here. The lady talking about a psych evaluation." "What do you remember last?" "Being in court and when I tell you them niggas was plotting against our ass! If I didn't have the two looneys killed already I'd kill them myself." He did what?

"August please tell me that shit wasn't mixed in with the Haitians..." "Yeah it was Leah. That's also how I got your record clear." "August what the fuck? Do you not care about your damn life? I feel like I care more than you do. What the fuck stay away from that shit." "Aleah that's the last thing that was done with Haitians. I'm done with it. KC claiming they falsified the documents Amaya isn't mine biologically just legally and fucking Lorraine and Mackenzie were sisters! It might be a whole family full of crazies waiting to get my ass."

"Nigga what the hell! I told you about them bitches man!" "'Ma'am you have to calm down." "Bitch you calm down don't touch me." "Baby chill." I glance back at the nurse who's still touching my damn shoulder. She don't get this shit. She doesn't understand why I'm upset and if I was her I'd move. He's always doing and into something. "I ain't going down for you again August. If anything happens its on you this time."

I go sit out in the waiting room. This shit is creepy as hell. Ty comes out a few minutes later, "You alright?" "He doesn't get it nor understand. I did that shit so he could become something, so maybe then he would take it as a lesson learn but he didn't. He's still fooling around with the exact type of people who can land him in that bitch. Don't even get me started on the fact that KC ass wasn't even dead! I wasted time damn years of my life. I don't even have a real relationship with my daughter because of him."

"Whoa what who? What you talking about?" I sigh deeply before continuing, "Ive been talking with a therapist via Skype while you've been at work and while the kids are sleeping. I don't feel like I'm Amaya's mother. Yes she calls me mommy but that's as close as it get. I love her don't get me wrong but like a niece or something." "Aleah damn why didn't you tell me?"

I needed to be sure it wasn't just the pregnancy talking. The doctor is saying it's because I gave her away and the whole situation with that. In efforts to suppress the whole thing, I acted as if it never happened and because never were there it's not emotional attachment. When I saw her that day it triggered this protective response in me over her but that genuine feeling of a mother's love just isn't there." 

"Damn Aleah. That's... That's sad real sad. Amaya already grew up in the system and now this shit with August and KC and then this. Children notice that type of shit Aleah. You don't get the the type of pain you're putting her through." "Ty I'm not going to treat her any different." "She's going to be watching you with Tyleah and Tywon and be wondering why could she get that? Where's the love for her. Aleah I don't what you have to do to turn the mother sensor but you need to do it. Now is the wrong time to be abandoning your child."

"Why are you getting me? I never said I was abandoning her. I have to-" "It's not you it's the situation it's real fucked up! Now ain't the place to be discussing this damn foolery." "Alright Ty." I lean back in the chair. I'm about to have mental breakdown my damn self. He didn't even let me finish telling all of shit before jumping down my throat about it. I feel like shit when I think about the situation and he ain't making it no better. The doctor told me what I need to do.

A few hours later August comes out, relaxed as hell. I'm so ready to get in my bed and see my babies. We get August to the car. "Babe I'm hungry." "Okay." He says sternly. I shouldn't even be talking to his rude ass but I really am hungry. "What you want?" "Doesn't matter." "McDonald's probably the only thing open at 4 in the morning." "Well that's fine."

We stop by McDonald's and get the food. As soon as I get in the house I eat and then shower. It's 6 in the morning by the time I get in the bed, alone. I lay there and stare up at the ceiling. Ty needs to hurry up. He walks into the room, "Thought you would've been sleep." "I was waiting on you. August sleep?" "Yeah. I'm about to go shower quickly." "Ok."

A few minutes later he comes out and get in bed. "I'm sorry for yelling earlier." "You never let me finish telling you." "Alright finish telling me later then." "Uhm mhm." He kisses my cheek. "Good night baby." "Good night." "I love you girl." "I love you too."

I wake up hearing one of the twins crying. Aw my babies are home. I get out and rush downstairs. Grandma Francis is holding TJ and the girl are playing with Tyleah in her seat. "Good morning." "Hey y'all." "Hey mommy." "Hey baby girl." I walk into the kitchen. "You alright?" August asks walking inside. "Yeah. I'm good.... Grandma when the last time they are?" "A few hours ago baby." "Okay."

I make up their bottles. "You good Aug?" "Man I don't know what the hell that shit was last night. I'm straight now tho." "Cool." I go into the living room and pick up Tyleah, "Hey mama." She coos at me. I smile and start feeding her. "Ty grab the bottle for grandma." "Grandma is about to go. I got some to do." "What you got to do?" Ty asks after grabbing TJ from her.

"Early bird special with a friend." "Grandma you going on a date?" "Yes Tywon Jamel Jackson Sr. I am." "You ain't grown grandma. Let me meet him." "Boy I have scars older than you sit down. It's not that serious." "Uh oh grandma getting her grove back." I say laughing. "Leah you know it never left baby." She says laughing, "See y'all later. See you later girls." "Bye grandma Francis."

"Girls y'all ready to go home?" August asks. "You fit to drive man?" Ty asks. "Yeah I'm good."   "Alright.. I can drive y'all to the house if need be." "It's good man. Thanks tho." They get up, "Bye Aleah, Tyleah, TJ." "Bye y'all see y'all next time." "Later folk. Thanks for coming down last night." "Later Aug. Remember what I said." "I got you Leah." They leave out. Ty locks the door.

I look down at Tyleah. She's so beautiful. She has Ty big brown eyes, she looks exactly like me, facial features, dimples and all. TJ on the other hand looks exactly like Ty with my dimples. I laugh, I can't believe Ty tried to name her Ronald. "What's funny?" "You trying to name Tyleah Ronald." "Man, you playing name her Tyleah." I laugh, "Get over it." I lay Leah on my shoulder to burp her. "She's going to sleep." Ty says peaking behind me.

"What TJ doing?" Ty asks turning around. TJ looks at me with those big brown eyes. I wink at him and he cracks a little smile. "He's up just smiling and looking." "Let's switch." "Alright come on." We switch them out, " Hey Nunk." I rock him in my arms. TJ is the sweetheart of the two, Tyleah on the other hand is the fiesty one. She's sweet when she wants to be. She has no problem mugging you. Ty claims she gets it from me.

"So what's that you had to finish telling me." Ty says. "Oh yeah... The doctor was saying we have to re-establish that mother daughter bond. Like well first I have to stop trying to block out the problems and verbalized them rather than keeping them bottled up inside. Then start doing little things with her and maybe even her moving in one day." "Yeah it sounds right... But what are you going to do about KC?" "I may have to get custody of her back, but my only thing is with all of this is I don't want to take her away from the only family she's known or away from August."