Love doesn't exist?(N.H) {ON HOLD}

Chapter 32

(Momma'a POV)

Paisley has been different than I expected. She isn't as emotional as I thought she would be. She was willing to empty Bonnie's room and take a lot of her possessions. And was even greeting people at the funeral. She didn't take full advantage of the amount of time I told her she could be off of school and instead went back as soon as she could. She is so focused on her studies I don't even see her when I am home. I have been at work so much, I just need to get my mind off of Bonnie's passing and focus on my work and my kids who are distant as always.

  (Paisley's POV)

  Today is the day I finally have to do it. I have to tell Niall about Bonnie. I don't want to talk to them. I want to just leave me alone sometimes. But other times I need them more than ever and they don't respond. Niall hasn't contacted me since the concert and it makes me feel abandoned. He told me here would be there for me and he hasn't even returned my messages.

  I can't believe it is December already. The semester is almost over and I am still next to Jack in all my classes. Which I don't mind. I just don't like that every time I look over I find him looking at me. Him and I have been putting aside our problems and have been studying together with JJ before every test.

  Once I took a shower and dried my hair, so I didn't look like the total mess that I have been, I got on my laptop and went to Skype. I typed in Niall's username and hit call.

  I waited and waited for him to pick up until at the last second he finally answered.

  "Paisley?" Niall's voice was shaky.

  "Niall? Are you alright?" I asked.

  "Uh? Oh yeah! I'm fine. I'm just startled that you called me," he responded.

  "Alright..." I didn't quite believe him. He looked scared. I could tell he was in a large room that wasn't his bedroom. Maybe he was backstage. Preparing for a concert.

  "Is everything alright? You look different since the last time I saw you," he was looking closer at the screen.

  "Um.... There is something in have to tell you..." I was being long winded.

  "You're not pregnant are you?!" Niall nearly shouted in fear.

  "No! Now now shut the fuck up and listen!" I hollered.

  "Fine," he huffed.

  "Bonnie.... Is.... No longer with us," I said choking back the tears that were now forming even though Bonnie was right next to me, telling me what to say.

  "Tell him to tell Louis I love him and I am sorry," she whispered into my ear.

  "What do you mean, 'no longer with us'?" He looked confused and worried.

  "She... She died. Two months ago," I exclaimed with sadness in my voice. Holding back the tears made me croak.

  "She what!? Why did you wait to tell me this?!" He shouted at the camera.

  "I needed time to mourn, Niall! She wasn't your best friend and sister! You didn't live with her! You didn't know her almost your whole life!" I nearly screamed at him with tears flooding my eyes.

"Paisley, Paisley, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to," Niall shhed my sobs. "If you don't mind me asking, how did it happen?"

  "She died in a car crash. She ran into a tree when it was storming so bad, she couldn't see the road," I still cried.

"Paisley.... I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can do?" I could hear the pain in his voice.

"Could you tell Louis for me?" I asked. I don't want to see Louis' face when he finds out. He and Bonnie had a special connection.

"Sure. I'll tell him. He is in the next room," he said, starting to get up from his seat.

"And could you tell him this from Bonnie: I always loved you and I'm sorry,"Bonnie was hovering over my shoulder to see the screen as well.

  "Paise, I'm sorry, but I have to go. The concert is about to start. I will tell Louis after so it won't distract him. I will call you later," he exclaimed.

  "Okay. Talk to you later," I sniffle.

(Niall's POV)

After ending the skype with Paisley, I went on stage. The crowd was amazing. They were loud as can be. The boys were happy. And I hate to ruin the mood as soon as it was done.

I waited for all the guys to get into the dressings room so I could break the news.

"Guys... There's somethin' I've got to tell ya," I started to say.

"What is it mate?" Liam spoke.

"Paisley had some news she would like me to tell you...," I said.

"Is she okay?" Harry asked worriedly.

I took a deep breath"not exactly...,"

"Niall. What is it?" Louis stood up.

I took another, longer deep breath" Bonnie passed away..." I looked at the floor. I couldn't look at them.

  "My my god," Louis gasped.    

  "How about you guys go do something else while I try to calm him down," I pushed the guys out of the room and rushed back over to Louis.

  "Louis, calm down, I'm sorry mate but you have to calm down," I spoke as calmly as I could.

  "She's gone. She's really gone. I will never be able to see her beautiful face again," Louis cried.

  "I know. I know. I am so sorry. But Paisley wanted me to tell you something from her, but I need you to calm down," I took a hold of his shoulders.

Louis breathing slowed and could look me in the eyes. "What is it?"

  "Before Bonnie died, she wanted me to tell you that she loved you and always had. And she was sorry," I put my hand on his shoulder as he began crying again.

  (A/N:)

  Sorry this update took so long. I just didn't have much ideas. I will update as soon as I can. Please excuse the errors. Please vote, comment, and share the story as much as you can!