Love doesn't exist?(N.H) {ON HOLD}

Chapter 35

(Paisley's pov) (Time Laps... 4 months)

It is now coming to the end of April. Six weeks. Six weeks until we graduate High school. JJ plans to attend NYU next fall and I am undecided. I got into so many colleges. Yale, Harvard, Oxford and of course NYU. I just don't know what to choose. My boyfriend or my future. With my over 5.0 GPA and the extra curricular activities that I have done over the year, plus my outstanding scores on the ACT and the SAT, I was offered scholarships from all of them.

I was at school and not with JJ. He was at home and has been home for most of the week. He says he's been having terrible migraines and had an appointment to see a doctor later today.

I really hope that it isn't anything severe. Just maybe he hit his head hard or something. A concussion at the most. I couldn't imagine not having him with me. I don't even want to think about loosing him or anyone close to me. I have already lost Bonnie.

Bonnie is still lurking around the house and mostly with me. But she sometimes checks in on Peyton and Liam. They are almost a year old now. She sits at the table with us at dinner occasionally and whispers into my ear.

I was sitting in English class when Jack came up to me and started asking questions that he could ask himself but decided to use me as am information booth.

"Have you heard for JJ today?" He asked.

"Yes. I am his girlfriend," I sassed.

"I was just wondering because I heard my mom talking to his mom about him having health problems," he replied.

"Well that is all I know. He has an appointment today but I won't know anything until after school."

"Okay..." He sighed and then sat down.

Once Jack started asking questions, it got me worried and I wasn't able to focus for the rest of the day. I went home without lunch and no food in my system.

I came home to an empty house, as always and just waited in my room for JJ to call me. I had my phone on the charger and Harry Potter and the Chamber of secrets playing on the TV as I waited impatiently.

I started to doze off near my favorite part of the movie. When Draco gets a defense spell and lands on his ass. But my phone's loud ringtone ruins that sensation.

I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was JJ. I answered it and put it on speaker phone.

"Hey babe! How did the appointment go?"

"Hi..." He responded. Something had to be wrong. He never just says "Hi" when he is talking to me.

"Is everything alright?" I asked

"Can I come over?" He said

"Of course!" I replied. Why does he want to come over. It must be bad news. I really hope that it isn't, but what good has my hope ever been?

"I'll be there in a minute. I am almost there," and then he hung up.

I ran downstairs and unlocked the door. I saw his jeep on the curb of the road. Running to the door, I swung it open to see him with his head hanging down. Like he was ashamed.

  "JJ?" I ran after him as he brushed past me and went up the stairs and into my bedroom.

  I didn't catch up to him until I reached my room and saw him lying up on my indoor balcony. I climbed the stairs that led to it and sat next to him.

  "Babe? What's wrong?" I asked, putting my hand on his.

  He looked at me with droopy eyes. They were blood shot. "Do you promise not to get upset?"

  "Of course, what is it?" I pressed.

  He took a deep breath and said,"Something is wrong with me."

  "What do you mean 'wrong with you'," I was confused.

"I have," he paused,"a brain tumor."

  I felt a lump in my throat begin to form. I know I promised not to be upset, but who wouldn't be upset by this. I chocked back the tears and said," Do you plan to have it removed?"

  "The doctor already scheduled my surgery for next month. He doesn't have any openings this month so it will be in the middle of May. If there isn't any complications," he explained.

  "What about graduation? College?" I babbled.

"I guess I will have to take a year off of school to do radiation therapy if it turns out to be cancerous which they think it is. They say it looks so big that I could have had it for more than a year without knowing it," he exclaimed calmly.

  How could he be so calm about this. There is a good chance that he could die from this. "How are you being so calm?!" I nearly cried.

  "I don't know. I am just trying to be strong for you and my family. I don't want to freak any of you out," he looked me in the eye with his now flooding eyes as my began to hose out tears.

  "Well you already did," I cried as I curled up to him as both of us cried in each other's arm.