Changing Love/Axl Rose/

Chapter 23

We got back at Duff's place and I immediately got some vodka. "Easy on the vodka girl" Duff said ripping the bottle out of my hands. "Sorry" I said. "Mind if I go for a smoke?" I added. "Thats alright." Duff said. I went to the backyard and got a cigarette out o the package when I realised I didn't have  a lighter on me. I walked back inside. Duff had a confused expression on his face. "Forgot a lighter" I said. "oh I have one here" Duff said reaching for his pocket. "here you go" he said handing me the lighter. "thanks" I mouthed. I walked back outside picking up a guitar on my way. 

I sat myself on a nice fancy chair in the grass, lit up my cigarette and started playing. 

Keep trying to pinch myself,

Wake up from this bad dream,

Of you being with someone else,

'Cause you were always with me.

I only push you away, hoping that you come back someday, soon.

But you're careless as my tears are falling down on your chest..

So when you're holding her,

And it doesn't feel the same,

When your life starts to hurt,

You're the one to blame.

When you're chasing love,

But it's all run away.

Just remember you let go,

Not me.

Say this was love, not hate,

But I don't hate you at all,

Just tell me what has changed,

From when we both had it all.

I only push you away, hoping that you come back someday, soon.

But I tell you I won't wait,

So don't keep thinking that I'm here, for you.

Now what's the point in trying?

Just wasting time and lying.

I've set me free.

Now what's the point in trying?

Just wasting time and lying.

Just don't come running back, running back to me.

I heard clapping behind me, Duff had snuck up to me. I turned around "thanks" I said. "here" he said handing me a coke. "thanks" I said. "It's about Axl, isn't is?" Duff asked. "yes." "that girl that was with him, she's probably not half as fun as you are." "She is, I went to the same school as her, she was the popular chick.'' "that doesn't mean anything" "I know, I don't need Axl tho." "He clearly doesn't care enough about you." Duff said. "wait.. that came out wrong sorry." "it's okay." I took a sip from my coke and started randomly playing something. "You know what? that sounds perfect for a bass part for a song Slash and Axl have been writing." "you can have it" I  said. After a few moments we got back inside and sat on the couch,

"Duff.... I'm going back to Indiana." "What?! no, we need you here." "No, Duff, you don't. I don't wanna be here anymore." "When are you planning on leaving?" "Like, tomorrow." "I don't want you to go." "I'll see you soon tho. You guys play in Indianapolis next week." "How do you know that so well?" "I don't know." "Need a hand packing?" "would be nice." I said and we started packing my bags and before we knew it we were done. "I'll drive you to the airport tomorrow." "okay" I didn't want to leave Duff but I had to. This place has only left me bad memories now. A guy got shot because of me, Axl, paparazzi chasing me, I need to go home and start again, make up my mind and see what happens next. 

"Want some dinner?" Duff asked. "yaaasss'' I was so fucking hungraaay. "Il see what I have in the fridge and make something out of that." Duff said.

A few moments later I heard him scream "fuck" "what'd you do?" "I cut my finger." he said. I ran up to him. "are you okay?" "Yes, I'm good." he said holding a paper towel on his finger. "I'll do the rest, what needs to happen?" 

I finished cooking, onto Duff's orders. We ate it all, and then went to bed.

-----Next Day----

"Good morning." Duff said to me as he was smoking near an open window. I walked up to him and gave him a hug. "I'm gonna miss you." he pushed me back, I looked him in the eyes and saw tears fill his. I'd never seen him cry, honestly. He gave me his cute smile, that I could never fucking resist. We both leaned in and kissed. The front door opened. "Where's my be-" "oh I'll go home." a voice spoke. It was obviously Steven. We stopped kissing and turned our faces. "Wait? what?" Steven asked as I turned my face. "I thought Duff had hooked another stripper. and why are you two on the edge of crying? are you pregnant from him?" uurrrggghhh Steven always with his questions. "I'm leaving" I said. "where to?" "back to Indiana." "nooooo" "This place has only brought me bad memories and I don't need to be here anymore." "but we need you." "No Steven, you don't." by the way, Duff tasted so good, like, holy fuck. I want that flavour to be made into candy and eat it for the rest of my life if that makes any sense. It probably doesn't. k. 

----- hey babes. I have another chapter on paper so prepare for an update (maybe tomorrow) somewhere in the next week.-----