Changing Love/Axl Rose/

Chapter 27

I decided to do as I was told and left Duff alone, sitting outside on the hard floor. I went back inside to the guys and saw that Axl was quite injured. Obviously, I felt horrible. It was all my fault, and part of me is seriously doubting the decision to go back but the guys need me. Searching the room for Izzy, he was nowhere to be found. "Where's Izzy?" I asked (that wasn't intended but it happend) "He just left with your friend" Slash replied. "The man talks" I said, Slash has never been much of a talker. Everyone kinda laughed and then went on with their conversations. I really needed Izzy, he always knows what to do and how to cheer me up. I didn't want to be around the guys but I could'd go outside because Duff would be there. I was going insane, my anxiety was eating my alive, crippling on the inside. I had to drink but they guys would get mad at me because according to them it's dangerous, which is so hypocritical to say of them. I went crazy ran up to Steven tore him out of the room by his arm. "Give me drugs" I said "what?" "you heard me." "sure did" "Well then" "I'm confused" "And I am going mental, give me whatever you have, I know you have it" Steven took my hand and we walked towards the tour bus that was outside, passing Duff. "Another one of my friends you're going to fuck?" he asked and I fucking lost it. I ran up to him and gave him a punch in the face and I hit him quite some times in his chest, but was stopped by Steven pulling me away. "Mind your words Duff!" he said. He took me inside the bus and sat me down on a bed. I started crying, the reason remains unknown. "I'm sorry Steven" 'It's alright" he said, as he handed me a glass of water. "No, it's not, I'm ruining everything for the band. When I'm there, everyone is fighting over me, and then when I'm away, everyone goes insane without me. I just don't know what to do. I want the beest for this band, for all of you but I just don't know what to do" "It's alright, I'm going to quit the band and all will be well" he said. "Wait, what? No, you can't do that!" "I'm done with Axl's bullshit" "Steven, we all are, but we all just deal with it. He just has his problems that need to be understood, but y'all just fucking ignore it. Just like with Duff" "What about me?" He said. I turned my face, and saw him standing in the doorway. He thought he was so cool, why can't he just fuck off for once? "I was just saying that everyone in this band has problems and that everyone has to look out for each other and deal with all the problems instead to find against it. "Problems? no one has problems. The only problem in this band is you Sky, it's you and always has been." "Duff, stop talking, you're drunk. Or way past that. Anyway, just sit down and have some water." "I don't need your bloody water." "Duff come on, either leave or shut your god damn mouth" Steven said. "Why does everyone here fucking hate me?" Duff said and ran off. I didn't know whether to run after him or to leave him, but my guts told me to go after him. Thus I did. I ran after him and obviously he didn't want me, but I couldn't care less. "Duff, listen up, please. No one hates you, that's is impossible. Sometimes you just kinda, sorta, go too far in what you say, and you know you do. You just got to admit it, which you don't because the alcohol is talking and alcohol doesn't admit mistakes, we've all been there. That is one of the things I was just talking about with steven, y'all know what the other goes through but don't want to admit you do because you have your own problems." "I guess you're right" "Duff, can I say something that I trust you with?" "I mean, you know me." "Well um, I wanted to say that I love you, but at the moment I think it's better for me not to love people.'' "I guess it is." "but Duff, please know that my love for you is ever lasting, I will never hate you or disrespect you. Everything you do I will admire and I will forever be inspired by all of your flaws." "God, that sounded like vows." "Yeah, while I was saying it I realised that too." "This is the place you were born, right?" I hesitated, I didn't want to be reminded of my childhood here. "Yes, actually not too far away from here, my parents used to see bands a lot at this venue." "Is there any sight-seeing to do here?" "Not so much actually, but there is a really good burger place which is open 24 hours a day." "well then, let's get some burger."

And off we went, we laughed and had a really great time. We talked about the most random things, and then it got personal. "Did you enjoy living here?" Duff asked "I mean, I think I did. Just not so much with my parents, but I've already told you that story, right?" "Yes you did." "Once I went to high school, it was a lot easier to live here. I could hang out at friend's houses longer and go to clubs around town. Not that there are a lot but the few that there were were great." "What kind of clubs were they" "There was one down this road that mostly played music from the 50s, the vibe was always super chilled and they had all this weird, special cocktails. It was closed down after some kids had some weird drugs. The police here are very strict, always ruining the fun." "I know just what it feels like" "How lovely muse't it be to live in Seattle tho?" "Ah, it's not that great babe. There's nothing interesting" "but the music. Nirvana, Alice in Chains, and this new band that is coming up Pearl Jam." "I know, those fella's are amazing."

We finished our burgers and drinks and left the place. We were waling outside when Kayla called me. "Hello?" "Hey Sky listen up" she sounded kinda concerned "I'm listening" "Okay so, I was... hem... I was, you know, hanging around with Izzy, right? and then my phone rung and it was my boyfriend" "wait... you have a boyfriend?" "yes actually, you know him. Patrick Davidson. He went to high school with us." "Oh yeah I remember Patrick, those ocean blue eyes and the short brown hair waving through the wind" we both started laughing. "Well, yes, him" "what did he say?" "He asked how the concert was, and if I got home safe" "what did you say?" "I said that it was great and that we are still hanging out backstage" I looked over to Duff, he was staring into the atmosphere, something he only does when something is bothering him. "eehm, Kayli, I ought to go" "It's okay, where are you thought?" "At Henry's Burgers, with Duff. I'll talk to you later" "It's alright, cheers." I hung up and walked over to Duff. "So, who's Patrick?" "A guy from WLHS, Kayli and I just to have a crush on him, and now he appears to be her boyfriend." "So blue eyes and brown hair are more your type then?" "Actually it isn't quite that.'' "Then what is it?" "Actually, it is tall, blonde, brown eyes and into punk music, bass player in a rock band." "Is it?" he asked with a smirk and stars in his eyes, holding my face. We were standing in the parking lot, that was filled with pretty cars. While he held my face, time seemed mohave stopped. I looked in his eyes and his lips met mine, telling each other stories that could only be told by love. I felt luck again, they second we kissed I felt like I was worth something again. Here in my childhood town.