Changing Love/Axl Rose/

Chapter 19

I hadn't been in Duff's apartment for ages, and you could say it had changed. "It's kinda messy, just walk around it" it indeed was messy. "Would you like something to drink?" "No thanks" "Sure? you need to stay hydrated" "I know, I'm just not feeling so good" "I understand" 

Duff and I sat down and he asked me the most random question "What are you afraid of?" without a doubt I said "that you'd to see me the same way as I see myself" "how do you see yourself?" "well, I'm very negative about myself, I look down on myself all the time" "Please don't do that, you're too good or that" "see, that's what I mean, I don't think I'm good" "You are good honey" "and I'm afraid of the ocean" "The ocean?" "Yeah, you know, deep and dark, filled with weird creatures that'll eat you alive" "You're a weird girl you know" "Is that a problem to you?" "No, not at all, I'm a little weird myself, we are all a little weird" He said with a sparkle in his eye. I smiled at him, looking into his deep eyes.

"You gonna stay over at my place?" "If that's alright to you?" "Yeah, sure is." Duff said after taking a big sip straight out of the vodka bottle. "You know? you really should drink less." I said "He turned his face to me looking really pissed at me. "I'm sorry. I should mind my own business." I said and walked into the room where Duff has his guitars. I took one of them and played a song that I made up. 

"Last night you turned off the switch, I caught tong-tied with that bitch

No point making up an excuse, I don't need your lies to get me through.

I said it's over with you now

For the last night I've been fooled by you, and there's something you should know.

I don't need you to be my blanket someone else could keep me warm. This is not the way I planned it, someone else might come along. I don't you to pick the film out, someone else can write the script. This is not the way I planned it, some you lose but some you win."  I sang as my fingers slit down the guitar. 

"Great song" Duff said. "Oh hi, thanks. Didn't see you there." "I already thought so." he said after he swallowed the last bit of vodka out of the bottle. Duff...what are you doing? I asked myself. I wish he was more aware of what he was doing instead of just thinking about his own good. After a momentt wandering in my thoughts Duff spoke: "Sky, what are you gonna do next?" "What do you mean?"  "You know, you and Axl... you don't have a place to live anymore" "I don't know Duff.. I do not know..."

--The song is by Nina Nesbitt btw. Hope you like this chapter :)--