Changing Love/Axl Rose/

Chapter 26 (?)

So... Monday came around and Kayli and I went out to see the show.

Once we arrived at the venue, Duff was right there all ready, welcoming us. He had his arms wide open for a big ol' hug, the gnr style. I hugged him and maybe, I cried a little but no one needs know about that. "We miss you" he said "No, you're lying" "No I'm not, we need you" "Stop trying Duff, I'm not going back." "That's not what I'm saying, everyone is getting mad without you." "How's Axl?" "I don't know man, he's been talking about kicking Steven out and I just don't know about that. The band's been fighting and everyone's on their toes.'' "What are you gonna do without Steven?" I asked laughing my ass off "you guys are legit nothing without him, Guns is not Guns without the man behind everything" "We know, but he's been using a lot of drugs since you left, and everything's just not right" "well.. Axl's opinion to kick him out is not right" "I'm also here" Kayli said quietly "ugh, I'm sorry. Duff, this is my friend Kayli" "Hey nice to meet you" Duff said. Kayli seemed to be in some sort of shock. "HEY, Kayli, you still alive?" "eh.... yeah, yeah I'm fine" "Okay good" "here are your VIP passes by the way" Duff said, handing us the shiny passes. "Thanks darling!"

We walked on into the bakstage area. "Duff, how's your finger?" I asked, since it was wrapped up. "can you play?" "I don't know" "You don't know how your finger is. or if you can play?" "both" "have you not had rehearsals?" "nah fuck that shit" "oh okay then" "I'll figure it out as we go" "Y'all so stupid"

The guys did a final rehearsal and after some time the doors opened and the guys went on stage.

I had checked their setlist and the last song was a song that I'd never heard before, it came after knocking on heavens door. During knocking I saw Duff struggling with his finger, and after that he song he ran backstage to me "you need to play the next one, I can't do it anymore'' "Come on Duff, the last song'' "I really can't" "I don't even know this song" "Yes you do, you wrote this" "What?!" "Remember when you wrote that song in my backyard, that's this song" he handed me his bass "okay I'll play it" "thanks so much" he said and kissed me.

I walked on stage, Axl had already introduced the song "this song is about a really pretty girl, who I loved dearly" and slash had already started. I played my part and Axl looked at me. He got fuelled with hatred and really took it all out in the song. During Slash' solo he ran up to me and smacked me in the face "what the fuck are you doing here?" ''Duff asked me to play this, I did not volunteer" "What the fuck" "I'm sorry" "about what?" "everything" "me too"

After the song we all went backstage and Axl hugged me and then pulled me to a dressing room. "We need to talk" he said. "agreed" "I was wrong with cheating, very wrong. I fucking love you" "No you don't, you're violent as fuck. and if you really love me, please work on yourself first. You need help Axl, you past is haunting you." "I did love you, I always did, and always will, but you seem to love Duff more now." he said looking away. "I know you, and I know that you want me to be honest. Yes I fancy Duff, but at the moment I really don't know what I want, because I fucking loved you for fucks sake. I am just not able to forgive you." "I understand and respect that" "No you don't, I know you don't. You want me Axl, fucking admit it already. You need me, the band needs me, but I don't want what you want. Honestly, I don't even miss LA I'm fine in Indiana" "Are you sure?" "I mean, I miss the partying and the bar vibes, but not the lifestyle we had" "Are you honestly happy in Indiana?" "Yes" "Then please stay here in Indiana" "I don't know what I want" "You know that when you wanna come down, there are at least five places you can stay." "I know, thank you" We both stood up and hugged each other, I missed his embrace so much. He's so nice and warm and soft and fuck I love him. I stayed in his arms for what felt like forever, it was so damn nice. My face was agains his chest and I heard his heart beating. I was happy, happier than I've ever been. I missed Axl, I didn't think I did until now. I looked up at him and smiled, he smiled back. My stomach started twisting and turning, I wanted him back but what about Duff. I locked eyes with Axl and couldn't help but grab his face and kiss him. He ran his finger through my hair and I got really horny. Axl took off my shirt and kissed me down my neck. I took off my pants and he took off his undies, which was all that he was wearing because that's his preferred stage outfit.
We fucked. We fucked hard.
I missed this. I needed this.
This is how my life is supposed to be, I can see it all now.
When we were done we got back to the guys, who were all drinking in one room. Kayli was sitting on Izzy's lap, passionately kissing him. Slash had a girl with him, she was really pretty. I had not seen the guys in what felt like ages. Once Slash saw me he ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug ever, I missed him so much.
I whispered in his ear "I'm coming back" he let go off me and looked me in the eyes while still holding my shoulders. His smile grew wider and he fell in my arms again. "We need to go mountain biking and skating and make music and all the things together." he said "Alright, alright. Wild plans"
Within a minute, because of Slash' excitement, everyone knew that I was coming back to LA.
Duff walked up to me and held my arms, "is it true?" "Yes, sorry that I didn't listen to you when you told me to come back" "What made you decide to come back?" "Yeah... I don't think you wanna know honestly" "Did Axl fuck you?" I looked at him, didn't say a word. "FOR FUCKS SAKE AXL" he shouted. Duff ran towards him and punched him in the face. Axl pushed Duff against a wall and punched him back. Duff yelled something that was hard to understand, I knew what was going on. I searched around to room to find proof of what I was thinking and under the coffee table I saw three empty bottles of vodka, and empty cigarette pack that was clearly from Duff. Well... it was mine but I'd left it at his place, I wrote "L'amour est mort" on it after Axl cheated. Duff wasn't Duff, he doesn't mean what he's saying, he doesn't mean his punches.
"GUYS STOP!" by this time Axl was against the wall and Duff was about to throw a punch. I got inbetween them and pushed Duff away. I grabbed his arm and took him away from the situation. I walked outside with him and sat him down on the ground. "Duff, accept and respect, remember?" "yeah whatever fuck that. I love you." "Duff, I'm so sorry. I don't know what my brain is doing right now." "I really want the best for you and if that's being with Axl then, however hard it's gonna be, I'll be okay with that. I really wish that it wasn't gonna be this way, that you'd choose me over Axl after what he did to you. He broke you Sky, he fucking broke you. You cried in my arms for hours, you were wrecked. You destroyed yourself in any way possible because of what he did, and he can heal all that with just his dick?!" "Duff there's way more to it, we had conversations you know nothing about" 
"Just leave me alone please" "Please do nothing stupid, please Duff, don't go driving, don't go to Axl." "Just go"