Where Love Meets.

Chapter 34

Jordan's POV

I woke up surrounded with only white walls, with a strong scent and beeping machine was all I could hear that's when I notice I was in a hospital bed, I looked around and back to the hand that was on top of mine, Kyle was the owner of the hand and was peacefully asleep on the chair next to the bed, I just looked at him trying to remember how I ended up here until I heard footsteps approach the bed

"Good Morning Ms Carter, How are you feeling?" The nurse said smiling and walking to the edge of the bed to read my chart, Kyle's eyes slowly opens and he stood up to look at before he smiled and focused back to the nurse

"I'm okay I guess, what happened? "I said sitting up straight my throat was painful and my voice came out rather hoarse than normal

"You passed out at my doorstep last night I don't know what happened" Kyle said, concern evident in his voice and you could tell that he did not sleep well, he had eye bags and looked vulnerable. I closed my eyes and it all came crashing back to me, what happened before I knew it my eyes were welling up with tears and I began crying uncontrollably with my body shaking so bad, the nurse came towards me forcing me to look straight into her eyes

"It's okay now you are safe please try relaxing and take deep breaths" I did as I was instructed until I was calm. I sneaked a glance at Kyle to see him really worried with a frown on his face. I suddenly touched my stomach

"How is my baby, is she okay" I said panicky looking at the nurse and Kyle and touching my baby bump

"The baby is fine, all we need from you honey is you to relax" The nurse said smiling at me sincerely before she checked my blood pressure and heart rate before leaving the room, but before she went out she asked if I wanted my food now and I nodded eagerly because I was starving

"Are you alright Jay?"He asked looking at me and squeezing my hand

" I'm okay now, please let's try forgetting about happened yesterday for now please" I said holding his other hand too, I know I cannot forget not ever that the guy who I was dating was the person who killed my parents but I did not want to dwell on it anymore until I was home

"Hope you did not tell Keera "I said looking at Kyle, I wouldn't want her worrying a lot about me anymore

"No, no one knows you are here "He said and was about to say something when the nurse walked in with my meal. I sat properly and began eating my meal. I rested my hand on my belly and we began small talks until the nurse came back in with a file in her hand

"Good News, the test do not show anything serious so you can be discharged today "She said smiling at us and taking her leave. I got dressed in my clothes but not the ones I was wearing so I guess Kyle went inside my house and collected fresh clothes for me. I went out of the hospital with me sitting on the wheelchair even though I protesting with Kyle insisting I sit until I gave up and did what he told me

We got to my house where he prepared my bed and prepared everything I needed.

"I should get going are you going to be okay alone?" he asked. it was getting dark and he had to leave nodded and smiled lightly before he went out and I drifted deep into sleep, I guess it's the medication they gave me back at the hospital . I was woken by a loud bang that startled me, when I looked at the clock to find that it was only 1AM I mentally groaned and got out of bed to get water to drink but as I was about to walk downstairs, images of my mom and dad's body were displayed and the scene played again like it used to ,making me go back to bed and crying myself to sleep

The next day Kyle came again to check on me

"How are you this Morning, how about we eat out or should I make you breakfast" He said coming up to face me but his mood changed after seeing my face

"Jordan what's wrong, were you crying all night? " he asked looking straight into my eyes, there was no denying that I was indeed crying because my eyes were swollen and bloodshot, my face felt numb and my hair was in tangles . I looked down avoiding his gaze but he intended on looking at me that I couldn't escape his gaze anymore

"I'm fine Kyle, It's just the hormones that's making me this way, I swear I will be fine" I said getting up and going to the bathroom

he seemed convinced with my statement because he just went downstairs to make breakfast.

The weeks that followed were the same routine with my mood not changing at all , it was even getting worse because id cry myself to sleep everyday and I felt like being alone for most of the time, after Kyle would leave id ponder on the day of the shooting and the day when Mark confessed, He has tried calling and has come one day while Kyle was away, he knocked until he finally gave up and never came back nor called again, honestly I feel its for the better because I was not ready, in fact I never wanted to see him ever again

"We need to talk Jordan " Kyle suddenly said pulling me from my trance like state which I'm always in. I straightened up and looked straight at him

Damn it Jay, you've been like this from this day I have no clue what's happening or what has happened that night when you walked into my house and passed out. You left me clueless and you making me restless because I don't know what to do anymore ,I am really trying here and yet it's no progress because nothing is changing, you cry yourself to sleep, you don't not eat much anymore and you are pregnant man , you shouldn't be this way , please tell me what's going on maybe I might help" He said looking at me ,I couldn't form any coherent word only tears were streaming from my eyes uncontrollable I want to tell I really do but the moment I try telling him it's like my voice gets lost that I cannot utter a word. He just looked at me sincerely and seeing that no words are going to come out of my mouth he left the house with anger evident in his face and his tense body. I sat that looking at his back disappear.

The Following two day he was so tense that he would come just to sit and not utter a word at all to me, he would cook or bring take-always then we'd sit there in silence

"I'm going back to my house soon" He said suddenly , dragging my eyes from the talk show that was playing to looking at him , he was still looking at the TV even though he saw that I was looking at him

"I'll be leaving in two day because they are done, and my parents will be coming back , Hailey is going to school and my parents need their own privacy" I sat there looking at him and nodding, I knew this day was coming but after what happened I didn't want him to leave because when he is here even though we don't talk I feel a little comfortable and face that there is someone around me

"And I am really worried about leaving you in this house especially the way you are right now, but maybe that's what you want" He said sadly, I felt so sad when he was saying those words but I was not ready to talk to anyone. Kyle left that and did not come the next day and that was really hard than anything I felt so lonely, alone and cold in this house that just dampen my mood worse but there was nothing I can do, I can't convince Kyle to stay a little longer, I didn't want to be burden to him his daughter also needs him and his company but I can't take it, the walls of this house are closing down on me it haunts to the core that I feel like I cannot breathe especially when I'm alone. I spend the whole day looking out the window hoping Kyle would appear until I gave up and went to bed.

The next is the day Kyle was leaving, he won't be around here anymore and that didn't make me feel any better. I began drawing and listening to some music just to distract me but my mind wandered off and I felt horrible, after painting I took a shower and decided to wear some warm pants only to find them really small ,that dampened my mood worse that I ended up crying again until I got up and went out of this house. I walked out through the cold breeze because I knew if I did not do this id regret it.i went to knock at the door to find Kyle standing with bags in both his sides, looking as fresh and ready to go, that's when I knew I had to say something now

"Can I stay with you?"