Unexpected love

The walk Part 17

It's been three weeks since Zach has woken up. We still hang out, but the connection is gone. Every night before bed I can't help but cry myself to sleep. Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic. He has been going to therapy. He's been able to remember, well nothing.

His mother tells me that it's good for him to spend time with me. That he will remember me. But I am slowly loosing hope. My heart grows colder and more lonely every day I see him. Sometimes we feel these seconds of connection. Like we'll be eating in a restaurant with his mom and he would laugh at how I was always nervous.

We would end up staring at each other from across the table. I would think, do you remember? He would look down at his lap and shake his head. He's been trying so hard to remember. One day he held my hand and said to me,

"I've been trying to remember...how it felt to kiss you, because I'm sure we did...I just can't remember. I also want to remember what it felt to laugh. Every time I laugh with you I just feel sad and empty. Like there's something missing." A tear rolled down his face and he apologized.

I hugged him and I cried on his shoulder. He's so amazing. I wish he never took me out on that date. He might have been home. Maybe things would be different....i walk to his house and his mother greets me.

She hugs me and calls Zach. He greets me with a smile and my heat breaks. I look at his dimple. Ha. He's so cute.... He said goodbye to his mom and we started to walk to the park.

"So! Where are we going J?" I smile at the fact that he called me j. Just like he did when he texted me goodnight the night before he fainted.

"Where we first met as adults, the park." He laughs,

"hey is that where you spilled coffee on me?" I nod and he chuckles. He stops and I stop with him.

"I want to remember." I look down and feel tears welling up.

"Yeah, I know you do." I whisper as I hug him. After we pull apart he holds my hand. Too bad he doesn't remember our amazing date. When we arrive to the park we sit by a tree and go over our favorite things again.

Zach's P.O.V:

We get to the park and sit by a tree. We talk about all our favorite things. I rub the back of my neck when she tells me about how I ate a brownie and got chocolate all over my face.

"Hehe yeah it was pretty funny. I got chocolate near my face and you......" She trails off and stares at the sky. Her face full of sadness. I look at her. God she's so beautiful.

But i don't know, I don't like her the way I know I used to. If only I could remember. I've been causing her so much pain. Why can't i remember. I really want to love her.

I try to remember about the day before I fainted. My head starts to pound and I put my had to my temple. I groan. Julie looks at me and grabs my hand. She pulls out her phone and unlocks it. I lay my hand on hers and smile.

"I'm fine." A tear rolls down her face. Oh god, I made her cry again. Way to go Zach. I squeeze her hand and she smiles.
"I just...I want to be able to help you next time. Maybe if I had called for help earlier, it would have been less serious!" I hug her.

"It most definitely was not your fault ok! I bet you were perfect. I bet you did the best you could, but trust me, nobody could have avoided it." I stroke her hair and she laughs bitterly,

"you don't even remember that night!" She sobs. Ouch. Yeah I know that. I stay silent.
"I'm sorry. I just wish you did remember. It's not your fault though I know that." She sniffles. Her face is wet with tears. I dry them with my sleeve and hug her again.

"So tell me about it, maybe it will jog my memory." She nods and lays on my lap.

"You picked me up at 7:00pm." She starts. I nod and play with her hair. She freezes and holds back tears. I hold up my hands

"what?!" She shakes her head and smiles sadly.

"Nothing. It's just you did that to me when we were in the limo that day....it feels nice, thanks." She blushes. I continue to play with her hair and she continues to tell me the story.
"I was wearing this amazing teal dress you bought me, you picked me up in a limo and we drove to dinner. Heh you rented out a whole restaurant and we sat at a table on the roof top.

It was amazing. There were flowers and candles all over the place, it was amazing. You ate a salad I ordered for you and I ate pasta. After we ate we stood at the railing and looked up at the sky. We hugged....and kissed.....then we got dessert.You had chocolate all over your

face and I started cracking up." She explains. I look at her face. How she smiles every time she talks about me, she makes little movements with her hands, describing to me where the chocolate was on my face.

I laugh, trying desperately to remember. But I can't. She tells me about how we go bowling and how I basically sucked and totally murdered my foot. I laugh and she does too.

She looks so happy, remembering all these things. My heart aches. I fake a smile as she tells me the rest. She then looks at me.

"You don't have to pretend to smile....I know this is hard for you too." she says sadly. I pout. She knows me so well. We continue to talk and then we start to walk to her house.

It's about 11:00 pm. Julie stops me when we are about to walk through a sidewalk park and I look at her.

"What's wrong?" She shakes her head.

"I don't want to go this way..." She says quickly. I tilt my head.

"Come on if we take another way we will get to your house super late. Why don't you want to?" I ask her. She buries her face in my chest and sighs.

"This is where we first kissed." She says quietly.

"Oh." Is all I can manage to say. I smile at her and hold her hand. "Then close your eyes and don't look." I say to her. She laughs and I place my hands over her eyes. I guide her through the park and once we get to her house I take them off. We stand at her door and she sighs

"See you tomorrow." She says, just like she always does. I nod and let her go. She kisses my cheek and steps inside. She quietly closes the door and I start to walk away.