In Your Dreams

Chapter 33

"Keep in touch, okay Rhino?" I more or less demand as I cling onto Ryan's leather jacket, dripping tears all over it. As slyly as possible I breath in the amazing smell of his cologne one last time.

Before I pull away, I wipe the tears from my eyes so he doesn't notice. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to work because when he pulls back to look at my face, he wipes his thumb over my cheek to rid it of any stray tears.

"Of course I will," he laughs before pulling me into another tight hug that cuts off any air to my lungs. But I don't care at all, I hug him back with just as much force until he pulls away, even then me still gripping onto his middle.

He doesn't even find me clinging onto him awkward and just leans down to give me a big kiss on my cheek before Joel comes from behind me and whisks me away. I see Eilidh now going up to Ryan and saying her goodbye's while Natasha is with Adam and Zoe is with Andy.

Turning back to Joel, I see him giving one of his brightest smiles yet. I instantly smile back , more tears forming in my eyes. How can I possibly say goodbye to these amazing boys? Not only do I have to say goodbye to Lawson tonight, I have to say goodbye to the One Direction boys tomorrow and Eleanor and Danielle. But the hardest goodbye I'm going to have to make is to Niall. That's right, I have to say goodbye to him, which means I have made my choice. And I'm not quite sure yet whether it is the best decision or the one that I really want... but nevertheless I have chosen Nathan because it will be easier.

I know I may be disappointing a lot of people and possibly even myself but in the end, wouldn't my heart get more broken if I dated Niall? I would hardly ever see him and loads of girls fawn over him every day. I'm not sure whether I could have dealt with that but it looks like I'm never going to find out.

"Joel, I'm going to miss you so much," I say, bursting into tears right in front of him. His smile drops and he pulls me into a comforting hug. Now I know why Kathryn love shim so much. He gives the best hugs anyone could ever ask for. I'm so glad that I can call him my friend. On the bright side, I can bombard him and the other boys with texts now since they gave me their numbers.  

"I'm going to miss you too, you muppet," he laughs into my hair and I breath out a teary laugh in response. He had given me that nickname at the club last night when I had fallen over my own feet, and I wasn't even drunk like everyone else.

"Right I better go and say goodbye to Andy and Adam before I turn into a puddle of tears right here in front of you, Joelene," I say, wiping my eyes and laughing at the nickname me and half the Lawson fanbase call him. Andy had said in a tweet that he saw the spitting image of Joel on the street, but the only thing was that the person was a girl, so everyone started calling him Joelene.

"Please don't call me that," he says with an almost pained look on his face. I laugh, lightly punch him in the shoulder and walk towards Andy.

He already had his arms open for me and I throw myself into them. His stubble brushes along my forehead and I giggle as it tickles.

"Great new song Andy, you really are a fantastic songwriter. I'm expecting a second album sometime soon," I say, pointing at him with a playful warning glare.

"Of course, we're already working on it. And thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it."

I hug him quickly again before pulling away. "Stop before I start crying again with pride."

He grins at me as I turn around and shout, "ADS!"

He turns around instantly and gives me a brilliant smile. "Becca! I can't believe you're all leaving tomorrow. It's been incredible meeting you girls."