You Mean Something To Me

Horrible Dream

Colleen's POV:
I scrolled through comments.

Ugly.
She probably starves herself.
She doesn't look healthy!!
She has no friends lol.

All of them were true. I don't have friends. Who would want to be friends with me? As people have told me, aka my mom, I'm a Debby downer and I just make the room fill with sadness. I mean I try to hide my depression in my videos but it doesn't work. I have been doing videos for 6 years. I should probably stop but I can't just be broke for the rest of my life. I can't work at a store or something like that because I would just be judge. People say I'm too fat. People say I'm too skinny. People say I wear too much make up. People say that I need to get a life. I have done a collab with my sister. She is the only person that cares about me. I used to play a character Miranda but nobody cared about that. I one time went to perform but had a audience of 10 people. That was the worst. Also, no boy will ever love me. I don't have a good body. My face isn't attractive and I look like a try hard girl. Who wants to be with a try hard? I get so sick of this.

I closed my laptop and started crying. The comments were eating away at me. All of them are true. I'm never gonna find a love. Nobody will ever love me. I get up and go to my bathroom and cut. It's not like I haven't don't it before. It is almost like a daily routine.

I laid back down on my bed and sobbed into my pillow. I kept pinching myself, trying to wake myself up from this horrible dream but I can't do that. This horrible dream is my life.

A/N
okay I this is my new story! This will be a little sadder so please be prepared. THIS IS YOUR WARNING! *Self harm will be in this story, read at your own risk!* hope you all enjoy this story!!