You Mean Something To Me

Problems

Colleen's POV:
He kissed me and then pulled back. I don't know why I just did that. Kissing on the first date? Isn't that to fast?
"I'm sorry I don't know why I did that." I said getting up. He grabbed my hand and pulled me in his lap and kissed me. It was the best kiss ever. And the fact that he wanted to kiss me made me even happier. He pulled back and smiled ear to ear. He was adorable.
"We should probably go back before someone comes because I think we are trespassing." He said.
He helped me down the hill. I was so tired but I never wanted to leave. This is what I wanted. To escape my problems. And to escape my problems with my new favorite person in the world. I walked hand and hand with him down the mountain. We got in the car and I closed my eyes.

I woke up and Joshua was shaking me.
"Colleen. We are at your apartment." He said.
"Oh sorry I slept the whole ride." I said getting out of his car.
"It's okay. You needed it." He said.
"Listen I should go home cause I have to edit and stuff but this was the most fun I have ever had." He said.
"Me too." I said. He hugged me tight and I hugged him back.
"I'm going out to the movies with Rebecca a and Matt tomorrow maybe you could come with us." He said.
"Yeah I would love too!" I said.
"Have a good day, Colleen." He said.
"You too Joshua." I said. He kissed my cheek and walked off. I made my way to my apartment and fell right asleep in my bed.

I woke up and it was 4pm. I slept for a long time! I edited the video and my shoulder was hurting like usual but I ignored the pain and edited and posted the video. I then called Rachel and told her all about my date. She was so happy for me. I was just hoping Joshua wasn't a player type of guy. I knew Rebecca knew him well so I decided to call her and ask if she knows. We were pretty good friends. I called her and she answered almost immediately.
"Hey girl." She said.
"I have a question." I said.
"And it is?" She asked.
"Is Joshua the type of guy that uses girls." I asked.
"Why do you have a thing with him??" She asked.
"Yes. Well kinda. I don't know. I don't want to have a thing with him if he isn't gonna be serious." I said.
"No your all wrong. Joshua has always been in love with love. He has been waiting for the right girl. Colleen I think you guys will go somewhere. Matt and I have been trying to hook him up with girls but he had always rejected them. But he went after you." She said. That made me so happy. I told her about our little date that we had and told her about the kiss. She seemed so excited for me. I was hoping this would actually go somewhere with Joshua.

I went back on my video to see if anyone actually watched it. Some people did. The I made the mistake to go to the comments.

-Really Colleen your trying to get a boyfriend now?
-Unsubscirbed.
-I liked Joshua until now.

I read them and they were all true. I don't deserve such a good guy like Joshua. I saw Joshua called and texted me. I don't deserve him. He was so sweet to me but I could never return that. He doesn't needs to be with someone way better than me. He started spamming me then stopped. I sat in my bed and went on Twitter. I started crying at everything. I don't want to do this to myself. Why am I still doing YouTube if everyone just hates me. I just want all of my problems to end.