You Mean Something To Me

Who Even Cares.

*THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SELF HARM AND THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE. READ AT OWN RISK*

Colleen's POV:
He asked me to be his girlfriend!! Me!!! Why me? I don't know but I'm happy.
"Yes!!" I said a little to overjoyed. I hugged him tight. He laughed and kissed me.
"Colleen I love you." He said.
"I love you too." I said. I meant it. It felt good to say it. Say it to my boyfriend!
"Really?" He asked. He looked so innocent.
I nodded and kissed him. I was happier than I have ever been. I hugged him tight and he said goodbye.
I was happier than I could ever be.

-3 Weeks later-
(Still Colleen's POV)

Today Rachel called me telling me that my parents want us to come over for dinner. I'm really scared to see them again. Joshua was over right now. He has helped me out a lot. I haven't told him about my cuts because I didn't want that be the reason he ends our relationship.
"Josh I'm nervous." I said pacing back and forth.
"Calm down Colleen. Remember you are not a kid and you can leave if you want too." I said. I nodded and hugged him. I started modeling outfits for them as he just laughed and told me each one looked great.

The time came and Rachel and I got there at the same time.
"You nervous?" I asked. She nodded. We walked up to the door. We rang the doorbell and the answered.
"Hi girls. Come in." My mom said. I don't think I have ever been in a more awkward situation. We sat down on the couch and my parents sat in chairs facing us.
"Where is Chris and Trent?" I asked.
"Chris actually moved. He moved to Arizona. Trent had other plans tonight." My mom said. I wish my family was closer. We used to all be so close and then I don't know. We just drifted apart. My parents never kept in touch while we were in college.
"How have you guys been." My mom asked.
"Good." Rachel and I said at the exact same time.
"Colleen what have you been up too?" My mom asked.
"Not much. Just more hate on my YouTube channel than ever." I said.
"Oh." My mom said.
"I have a boyfriend though." I said.
"A boyfriend? What's is his name?" My mom asked.
"Joshua. Joshua David Evans." I said proudly.
"Don't you think that we should have met him? I mean we are still you parents." My mom said. Are you kidding me?
"Since when do you care about my life." I snapped.
"I have always cared." My mom said
"So these passed like 4 years, you cared? When someone cares they call you to make sure your okay. They come and surprise you. They are always there. And that's Joshua. You guys have never cared!!" I screamed.
"Colleen stop yelling!" My mom said.
"Colleen we were going through a hard time." My mom said.
"Yeah Colleen it was rough." My dad said
"You were going through a hard time? I was going through a horrible time. I struggled through depression and no one was there for me except for Rachel. Now Joshua has helped me and I have made new friends. I don't need you guys." I said.
"If you don't need us, then leave." My mom said. Wow that was just cruel. I got up and walked out proudly. I wasn't proud though. I can't believe my parents said that. I got in my car and quickly drove home.

I got home and went straight to my bathroom and got my razor out and cut my arms. I thought maybe going online would help a bit and watching some videos. I opened my laptop and comment were pulled up.
-Just kill yourself!!
It was true. Why not? Nobody cares. I wanted Joshua. I got out my phone and called Joshua.
"Hey babe." He said. I started sobbing.
"Want me to come over?" He asked sweetly.
"Yes." I managed to get out. He hung up. I didn't even want to see him. I'm such a disappointment. I didn't even care anymore. I stopped crying and pulled myself together. I got up and went to my bathroom and got out some pills.

A/N
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