Rejects | m.c

Chapter 12: Colours

Song: Colours by Halsey

From that day forward, he didn't bother me. I knew I did the thing I needed to do. Once I had walked away, I knew I couldn't say here for much longer. I still had a long way to go in the school and I knew I had to concentrate if I was going to get the grades I wanted at the end of the year.

Finally, the bell rang and we all walked to class. I began to hum the words to Mama by My Chemical Romance. Oh Gerard Way. Julia walked to my class with me as she was in the same as me. Biology. He was in this one. I gulped, suddenly fearing him.

''Don't worry, I'm right by your side.'' Julia told me, probably sensing that I was getting nervous. I missed being able to speak to him, actually having a conversation. My mum has even asked what happened because I haven't been talking about him any more and also he hasn't came over to my house. She knows nothing and there has been times where I am close to cracking up and spilling everything, but I know that wouldn't help anything.

It was the middle of the lesson, he hasn't showed up and I had a feeling he - nevermind, scratch that he just walked in. I felt my chest tighten, then there was Chris behind us laughing. Everyone knew about my big long speech about Michael, so he thought it would be funny to make sure everyone in class knew about it.

"Oh Blaze there's Michael, how about you make another big long speech again?" I held myself back to stop from swinging round and smacking him right in the face.

"Chris, I swear to god shut you mouth!" Julia threatened. She didn't want to see me doing what I was very close to doing and she knew exactly what I was going to do eventually.

Michael came and sat down beside Chris.

"Hey mike, look who it is. Guess she doesn't have anything to say now, do you blaze huh?" Chris kept talking, and if he said another word to me about this I will hit him. I didn't even care about my education right now.

"Someone's quiet for once, guess she got it all out when she was basically blurting out her love for Michael isn't that right blaze?" At that moment, both Julia and I snapped right around. I didn't hesitate to punch him right there in the jaw as he fell backwards in his seat.

"Wow what the hell Blaze?!"

"I told you not to speak to me, God do you ever listen!" I screamed at Michael. I was finally spilling my anger out, and I didn't care about anything going on around me. I was finally breaking.

When Chris took up, he swung to hit me but I grabbed his hand, putting his hand his back and hitting him again. People began to yell things like Chris hit her back and blaze is getting feisty. Some I don't really feel like repeating. Soon, when I couldn't find myself to stop, the teacher walked in and instantly broke us up from throwing hits and kicks at each other. We were immediately sent to the principals office. Julia voluntarily came with me, in her words 'to defend my honour'. I appreciated it, but word spread fast so as I was walking down the corridor kids came out from their classes, shouting things at me. Chris' friends were quick to try and hit me. I didn't blame them, because I know I'm a horrible monster. I never used to be like this.

We arrived at the office, my stomach was flipping. Mr Blackburn opened the door, looking very disappointed in me. We all sat down. He asked Chris to tell his story of how it all happened.

"Okay, so basically blaze made a very long speech to Michael and shit like how he can't ever speak to her again because he's some kind of monster and all this bullshit. So I walk into the class room and next thing I know Blaze here is pouncing on me and hitting me and attacking me. I did nothing wrong sir." That little lying mother-

"You're turn Blaze." I gulped.

"Okay, so what Chris said about my 'speech' to Michael is true. But I didn't just hit him for no reason. It was about maybe half way through the lesson when Michael finally arrived and the teacher wasn't there. So Chris started saying things to me, like how I should make another speech to Michael again because he's here now and other things. It just got to the point where I couldn't bloody take any more shit from this kid, he needs to grow up and know when to stop taunting people. I know I'm the one to blame because I made the first hit, and I take full responsibility for that."

Mr Blackburn looked at me like he believed me. At least I think and hope that's what I'm seeing. Then, he decided on a punishment for both of us. One week suspension for me since I made the first hit, 3 days for Chris because he hit me back. Julia at first defended me saying how they should have the same amount of suspension days as Chris was taunting me, and hit me but I told her to leave it. She did look at me like I was crazy though.

Our suspension started now, so I had to walk home since nobody could take me home. I was dreading telling my mum about this, since I never even told her about what has been happening with Michael in the first place. I walked outside the school gates, immediately texting my mum telling her I needed to tell her something important when I got home, which will be soon. I put my ear phones in, then put on Halsey. Her voice just calms me right down, she is an amazing singer. I hummed along to the precious words blasting in to my ears. 

''You were red. You liked me because I was blue. You touched me, and I became a lilac sky. And you decided purple just wasn't for you.'' I hummed along softly, not giving a care in the world. I kicked a stone along with my feet, looking down at the gravel. I thought back to the events of today. So much has happened and I never even made it to lunch. I had texts from Ashton, Calum and Luke. All asking what happened. I expect Julia to fill them in, but that doesn't mean they won't want to hear it coming straight from me. 

I was now at the top of my street, my stomach had butterflies inside. I was nervous as hell, I had no idea to tell my mum this. Before I could even think about what I was going to say, I was opening the door. There she was, sitting at the table. I now knew I had to tell her. There was no getting out of it now. 

''Blaze? Why are you home so early?'' She could tell I needed to just blurt something out, so she pointed to the seat opposite her at the wooden table. 

''Mum.. I'm so sorry..''

''Oh sweet heart, why? What happened?''

''You know how Michael hasn't really been spoken about in a while?'' She nodded slowly as I explained everything but him changing to me telling him to never speak to me ever again. Which he did anyway in that day. 

''Oh honey, I'm so sorry he turned out to be that way.'' 

''That's not the worst part.. his friend Chris was saying things to me. Michael walked in late to Biology today so Chris thought it would be funny to tell me to give him another big speech like I did earlier, and he just kept saying little things to push me further and further. I.. I hit him. We got in to a really big fight..I got suspended for a week. I'm so sorry mum.'' When I finally looked up at her, strangely she didn't look angry. She looked, understanding. 

''Blaze, I know you. I know how you would never mean to actually do this without good reason. I now know much you have been pushed around, and I know you to never take shit from people! I raised you to stand up for yourself, because you can't rely on people to do that for you. I know you simply snapped so the first thing that came to mind was to hit this Chris guy. I understand why you did what you did. I'm not angry, I'm not disappointed. In fact I'm the opposite. I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself, although I'm not encouraging you to hit someone just any time you want to!'' I laughed at the end, now feeling a lot better about this situation. Some how, my mum has went from being depressed because of my father leaving us, to picking herself up on her own and being happy. She knows she doesn't need a man to make her happy. 

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