Rejects | m.c

Chapter 25: im not okay

Song: I'm not okay by my chemical romance
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Anytime I passed Julia in the hallway, she always looked me up and down. I knew she was silently judging me, but let's me honest I was doing the exact same thing. She had no reason to suddenly change into another Stacey. She was already hooking up with guys during class time, coming in late with love bites all up her neck. I'm surprised the teacher never even said anything.

Thoughout the entire day, Michael managed to stick with me along with the other boys. They didn't like this change, everyone in the school knew who Julia was and knew she was the complete opposite to Stacey. Just yesterday she came into school with black jeans  with rips all up the thighs. She wore a Kurt Cobain shirt which had holes covering it. And of course her famous black converse. Her favourite colour is black! Stacey's favourite colour is pink. Julia may be a bitch but only when she stood up for what she believed in, not to cause people pain out of 'fun'. And I didn't not tolerate Julia anymore if this is the attitude she's going for.

All of us were in maths together and luckily I didn't sit beside Julia. She had moved herself beside one of Stacey's group members, Melissa. I put my earphones in as we continued work from last day as I set my phone on the desk. Luke looked at me with a raised eye. Just as I was beginning to him to chorus to Livin On A Prayer by Bon Jovi, my teacher pulled my earphone out of my ear. I looked up to see a scowl on his face as I grinned back.

"Phone, hand it over. You'll get it back at the end of class." I sighed before handing it over. As he walked away I had an idea. I flipped over to a clean page in my work book. I drew out the shape of my phone and the song I was listening to. I put my earphone at the bottom where they would plug in and began humming along to the song yet again.

"Wow, we're half way there! Wow! Livin on a prayer!" I hummed pretty loudly. Just as our teacher left the room, I started singing in a whisper tone to my friends at the table.

"Nice singing Blaze," Calum laughed as Michael was somehow nearly crying of laughter.

"Why thank you, thank you very much!" I bowed my head.

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Finally it was the end of the school day and I could not be happier. Once again, I walked home by myself, up until Michael came running up behind me and jumped on my back.

"Michael!!" I screamed, as we both fell to the ground, him landing on top of me.

"Hi blaze!" He grinned down at me, as I groaned and pushed him off of me.

"Why do you always have to push me around?" I said, making a joke hoping he would get it.

"I actually did jump on you for a very good reason." He played with his fingers, looking down at the ground.

"And why is that?"

"I wanted to ask you something.. But if you wanna say no that's totally cool too!" He talked quickly which he only did when he was nervous about something. We've come to know each other very well, sometimes more than we know ourselves and that frightens me a little.

"Just say it Mike!" I playfully punched him on the upper arm.

"I was wondering.. Maybe you wanted to go out on Friday..with me? Like, just us? But if you don't want to it's totally-"

"You mean like.. A date? Or hanging out as friends.."

"I mean it can be a date , that's if you want.."

"It's a date Michael Clifford. Now don't go jumping on anybody else's backs please," I laughed as he chuckled along with me.

We walked home together, talking about the most random of things. It's like nothing is ever awkward with us and I think that's what I like so much about our friendship. Even if I did always get the butterfly feelings in my stomach when I was with him..

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I AM SO FRICKEN SORRY ITS TOOK SO LONG TO UPDATE!! I'll be honest, I've been trying my best to update this chapter even in little bits but I found it so hard. Ever since the death of Adam over a week ago now, I haven't been thinking about wattpad I really haven't. I haven't even been able to concentrate long enough to even read a book on this!

Hopefully now that Adams death has sunk in for me now I will be able to update more. I say that but our school keep reminding us about it and I know it's gonna take a long time to go back to the way it was before, but it never really will.

So once again, I'd like to say..

Rip Adam McCormack. Forever you will be in our hearts and you shine bright up there! One of the funniest people I will ever come to meet. You were ready to leave but we weren't ready to give you up.

14th July 2000-29th January 2016❤️👼🏼