Ana's POV
I was going to kill Matt. He'd obviously spoken to Stacey. How else would she know? I'd been blindsided by this and now, here she was, wanting to talk to me.
I followed her into the living room, glaring at Matt before I left and listening as Charlotte burst into tears. I wasn't even sure why she was crying, maybe she just felt the tension.
"Ana." Stacey said, turning to face me.
"Look Stacey. Stop." I told her. "I don't know what Matt has told you but I certainly don't need your help with a baby."
"Ana." She said softly.
"Stacey this is ridiculous, what are you even doing here?"
"I told you Ana." She said, looking at me. "I want to help you and Matt have a baby."
I shook my head. This was just ridiculous. "Stacey, just stop."
"Look Ana." She said taking my arm. "Sit."
I looked at her, but I sat, I guess I could at least listen to her.
"Ana, I know we've had problems." And I snorted. Problems. She was the problem. "Look." She said softly. "I've been a horrible sister, ever since mom died, I blamed you, for everything. I know I did. I tried to make it up to you but there has always been that distance."
"You made that distance." I pointed out.
"I know that Ana, I know." She said taking my hand. "I want to make it up to you. I want to be the sister I should have been all along. I've missed out on so much of your life and I don't want to miss out on anymore."
I nodded. Before mom, before all of that had happened Stacey and I were close, best friends really. But now, we existed on the edge of eachother's lives. We'd still see each other, but not really participating in each other's lives. I had Charlotte and she barely knew her, Stacey had Avril and Adam, and I barely knew them. It was a shame, it really was.
"But this Stacey, a baby?" I asked. It was a big step to go from barely speaking to carrying my child.
"Ana you're a wonderful mother and you're a wonderful person, you deserve another child, you really do and I want to help you."
"I don't know." I whispered. I wanted another baby more than anything, but like this, Stacey?
"Tell me how it works." She asked, squeezing my hand.
I looked at her, maybe explaining it would change her mind. "Well, it's a bit of a process." I told her.
She shrugged. "I don't care Ana, I want to do this."
"Well first I guess they'll start me on hormones, make my one ovary produce eggs, then they'll harvest them." I explained. "They'll take Matt's sperm and my egg and fertilize it and I guess, well I don't really know what you'll have to do Stacey, but they'll implant the eggs in your uterus."
She nodded. "That doesn't sound that bad Ana."
I shrugged. "I don't think it will be easy Stacey and you, how will you feel carrying my baby for nine months, giving it to me at the end of all of it?"
"Ana." She said smiling, and tear fell down her cheek. "I would do anything to make you happy and this baby, your baby, it would be special, but it would be your baby Ana, and it's not like I wouldn't see it again."
I nodded, she was right, of course I would want her to be a part of the baby's life.
"Think about it Ana." She said hugging me. "Think about it then make an appointment with your specialist, we can talk to him, but I'll do it Ana, if you want me too."
"Okay, I will, I will think about it."
She stood up. "Good." She said walking to the door. "Call me in a few days, no, I'll call you in a few days okay?"
"Okay." I murmured.
"Ana, I'm your big sister. I love you and I want to do this for you." She said, closing the door behind her.
I stood there looking at the door. I was so confused, so conflicted, our relationship had been so strained.
"Matt." I yelled and he poked his head around the corner.
"Yes?"
I opened my mouth to let him have it, to tell him off for having told Stacey but all I did was burst into to tears.
"Ana, baby." He murmured, walking over and wrapping his arm's around me. "Ana, let her, let her do this for us."
I buried my face in his chest. "I told her I'd think about it."
"Good." He whispered, kissing me softly. "I want this for us baby, I really do."
I wanted it too, so very badly.
"We only have one problem." He said smiling as I looked up at him. "It seems Charlotte does not want another baby. No Ana." He said, seeing the look on my face. "She'll get used to the idea, you know she will."
He was right, Charlotte would flourish in the big sister role. But yes, I wanted this baby, I wanted Matt and I to be able to have another to child to love, I wanted it more than anything.
"I love you Matt." I said quietly, crying again.
"Oh god." He murmured, holding me tightly. "I love you."
We stood there for a few minutes and then he put his lips to my ear. "Let's do it baby, please."
I smiled and nodded. Yes. I was ready to do this. I wanted to do this.
