Pain. That's all I had felt. Excruciating pain. And I don't even know what caused it.
One minute I was driving, humming mindlessly to myself, next thing I know I'm smashed against a tree.
On instinct I thought of death. I know I probably shouldn't have but I couldn't help but not call Kat, I had needed to hear her voice.
I couldn't feel my legs, they were numb with pain, my stomach throbbing as well. I tasted blood on my tongue, it was dropping from my forehead.
I knew I was fucked. And I didn't want to scare Kat but I was scared myself, I wanted her comfort but instead I got her scared shitless. Not my intentions at all.
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I knew Kat was coming home today. I also knew she'd be pretty pissed I hadn't called her like I promised, but to be far - I had just gotten out of surgery.
Right after the paramedics had took me away from the scene I had fallen unconscious but woke up in a hospital room, my doctor telling me I needed surgery or I'd lose me legs.
That scared the fuck out of me so they threw me straight into surgery, both of my legs in casts all the way up to my thighs.
And I now knew how Kat felt when she fractured her ribs, I only fractured two thankfully but nonetheless the pain was uncomfortable.
I was actually a bit scared to face Kat. It was all over now, I was fine but I'd know she's going to be all protective and worried. Which isn't completely bad, but I don't want her to stress out more than necessary.
My phone began ringing on the bed side table of the hospital bed and I already knew who it was, she had been calling all day.
"Hello?" I finally answer Kat's call, she's probably just gotten back home and is terrified to not find me there.
"Oh my god - okay, fuck? You answered. You had me worried sick, where are you? Are you safe? Why aren't you hom-"
"I love you." I cut her off, my teeth biting into my lip. I loved this overly stressed out girl.
"Huh? What, Ashton I'm not kidding, where are you?" She asks, her voice is worried and frantic.
"Baby chill out, I'm at the hospital-"
"Still? Oh my god, it was that bad? I'm on my wa-"
"Baby," I chuckle at her, "I'm fine, but yes, please come, I miss you." I say and she sighs.
"Okay I'll be there in a few."
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There's a soft knock at my door and my heartbeat accelerates a bit, I haven't seen her in a month, it felt we were meeting for the first time. I was a excited little twat.
The door slowly opens, her head peaking around the door. I smile at her and her eyes widen, suddenly filled with tears as she comes to my side, her eyes staring up and down my bandaged body.
It looked worse then it was.
"Baby, it's fine-"
Her cries cut me off as she weeps in her hands, my heart shattering a bit.
"You got in a car accident." She mumbles and I nod with furrowed eyebrows. She knew this already.
"You got in a car accident." She mumble to herself, her hand coming out to touch my cheek.
Her touch is soft, "But I'm better now." I tell her, lacing my fingers with hers.
Tears are streaming down her face and I'm wondering why she's reacting this way. I was alive and I thought she'd be doing flips because of it.
"You could've died..." She whispers, her eyes staring at my full casted legs.
"I didn't baby, I didn't. I'm alive." I say and she shakes her head, her grip on my hand tightening.
"It's not as bad as it looks, I promise." I tell her, stroking her cheek with my other hand.
"M-My father. That's how he died." Kat mumbles almost to herself, her eyes full of tears.
Well I didn't know that.
"And that's why she said I should have died and not him. I was with him." Kat continues, her grip on my hand loosening as she pulls away, taking a step backwards from my bed.
"Baby, it's okay, I'm here. It's all better." I plead, stretching out to grab her, a sharp pain is felt in my stomach and I groan, Kat instantly gets back beside me, her hand on my shoulder.
"It's fine." I mutter, fixing myself in the small bed.
Kat doesn't say anything, her eyes are spaced out, her cheeks red and wet.
"Baby, come here." I say, wrapping my arm around her waist, pulling her onto the small space next to me.
"I don't want to hurt you." She says moving away from me, but I pull her forcefully next to me, her hand lightly on my chest, her head on my shoulder.
"You could never." I say quickly, pecking her forehead.
It's silent and I can feel Kat tense against me, she doesn't want to cause me harm, I know it but I honestly just want to feel her touch.
"I'm sorry about your father..." I whisper after several minutes of silence. Kat gulps beside me, her eyes staring down at her fingers.
"I was worried about you." She mumbles.
"I know you were baby, but I'm fine. I went into surgery on my legs and I'm a-okay." I say turning to her, a smile on my face. She hesitantly turns to me, her eyes shifted up towards my forehead.
"It's just a cut, I promise." I tell her and she nods slightly, her eyes shifting to mine.
"I missed you." I say, I did miss her, a fucking lot too.
"I missed you too." She says, a small smile on her face.
I smile at her, leaning in to kiss her, she hesitantly places her hand on my cheek as I deepen the kiss, our lips moving lethargically.
I missed her lips. I missed the taste of her lips.
"Love you." I mumble in her mouth. I feel her smile against me, "I love you too."
-
I had spent another night at the hospital but this time Kat was beside me, so it didn't bother me as much as it should've.
Although I was a little bummed she chose the cot and not my hospital bed. "You sure you don't want to lay with me? It's pretty drafty up here." I pretend to shiver, peering down at her as she lays on the cot, her hair scattered across the white pillow beautifully.
She chuckles, rolling her eyes in the process. "I'm fine down here, plus I'm not trying to squish your ribs." She says and turns on her side, her back facing me.
I groan exaggeratedly, punching the bed jokingly. "Your no cool." I say in a childish tone, Kat only laughs at my expense.
"Goodnight." She says and I guess she won this time, only because I couldn't physically get up and drag her into my bed.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah."
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So you guys got some insight on Kat's fathers death! If you go back in the first book where Kat goes to her mothers, that's what Kat's referring to when she says 'she said it should have been me', that's what her 'mother' had said to her.
Hope you guys are enjoying this story thus far! xx
