Christmas AU
You froze mid dance step and shuddered, his voice was ice cold, tinged with anger and exasperation, you didn't understand, you thought that seeing all the christmas stuff would make him happy not mad.
While you were stuck Charlie and Ben, obviously not picking up on his anger, were jumping up and down telling Dean about the day they had and how much they liked you, you finally moved slowly into the living room and met Dean's piercing green eyes "Hey can you guys go upstairs and give y/n and I a minute to talk?" he asked Charlie and Ben.
They stopped jumping and got worried looks on their faces realizing that there was something wrong "Dad what's wrong, Don't you like it" Charlie asked tugging on Dean's coat to get his attention.
"Of course I do, but y/n and I need to talk" he said bending down and looking her and Ben in the eye.
After a second of this Charlie shrugged her shoulders "Ok, tell us before you leave y/n so we can say goodbye" she said looking away from her dad and at you.
You gave her a sweet smile and nodded, grinning back she made her way upstairs Ben right behind her, when their footsteps finally receded Dean turned his fierce gaze on you "What is all this y/n?".
You sighed "Ben and Charlie wanted to decorate the house, so I figured why not" you shrugged your shoulders and looked around at all the decorations you and the kids had put up.
"The kids and I decorate on christmas eve, as a family" he said walking closer to where you stood in the doorway.
You took a step back in fear and dropped your head "I'm sorry, I didn't know" you told him.
He moved close still until he could touch you, he put his fingers under your chin and lifted your face up, his green orbs had lost some of the anger from earlier and even held a little regret.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, or upset you, I was taken a little by surprise, the kids and I started decorating on christmas even when their mother died, christmas was her favorite holiday" he smiled and let go of your chin "I guess that's where Ben get's it from" his expression became wistful and his voice became soft, you could tell that he loved his kids more then anything which made your fear evaporate and turn into something else, something you didn't want to think too much about.
"I'm sorry about your wife" you said taking his hand and giving it a squeeze.
He smiled down at you and locked his eyes with yours "It's okay, it was a really long time ago".
It was amazing what that little curl of his lips and those luminous green eyes did to your heart rate, they made it shoot through the roof while your eyes held each others for what seemed like forever but was probably just seconds, but as footsteps raced down the stairs and into the kitchen you tore your eyes away from his and walked towards the kitchen.
"What am I doing" you thought to to yourself "I'm not aloud to get close to them, to any of them, I just half to bring the christmas spirit back and then I'll be on my way" But as you looked at the kids you felt a sharp prick of sadness stab your heart, you had to get out of there and strength your walls.
"I'm leaving guys" you said dropping to your knees and holding your arms out, tomorrow you could be strong, tonight, tonight you allowed yourself to be weak, there was a few protests when they came over and hugged you, but you promised them you would see them tomorrow so they let you go.
You stood up and grabbed your things and walked towards the door "Be careful y/n the roads are covered with snow and it still hasn't stopped yet" Dean said then paused considering something before continuing "Do you want me to give you a ride?".
You shook your head "No I'm fine" you said opening the door walking out into the frigid night and getting into your car, the further away you were from dean winchester and his magical eyes the better.
But everything is always easier said than done, You would come over to the Winchester house and never want to leave, Charlie and Ben made the household come to life with their laughing and playing, you helped Charlie with her dance routine, helped Ben with his basketball, and you were able to avoid Dean, so far.
But today was Ben's Basketball Game so you would definitely half to see him today, not that you hated Dean you just wanted to keep your distance, you wanted to stop those feeling from growing more than they already had.
About an hour before it was time to go Ben Came flying down the stairs "Y/n I forgot it was my turn to bring the snacks for the game".
Charlie was sitting on a stool reading a book and responded for you "I'm sure Dad will bring them"
That worried expression didn't leave his face "Do you want me to get something just in case?" he nodded his head and sighed in relief.
You thought for a second and then it hit you "Let's make christmas cookies".
"Do we have time for that?" Charlie asked getting off her stool and walking towards you and Ben.
You looked at the clock and did a few calculations "if we hurry we'll be fine".
So you guys got to it and backed up a storm, you used your elf skills to make and frost cookies like nobodies business and still made it to the game with ten minutes to spare.
You looked around for Dean as the team took up their positions on the court but he still hadn't showed up yet, pulling out the phone Santa Gave you you flipped through your contacts until you got to Dean then pushed the call button, it rang twice and then went to voicemail.
Frowning down at your phone you hung up and turned your attention back to the game.
