Shawn Mendes Imagines

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Shawn Mendes Imagines

(A/N: lowercase warning right here, also that you're you have schizophrenia and the voice is your hallucinations and shit)

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schizophrenia : a psychotic disorder characterized by loss of contact with the environment, by noticeable deterioration in the level of functioning in everyday life, and by disintegration of personality expressed as disorder of feeling, thought (as delusions), perception (as hallucinations), and behavior

"you'll be fine! don't worry!" a voice screams out.

"I'm not!" I say outloud, grabbing my hair, wanting to rip it out.

"you'll be fine, he'll like you!" the voice says, walking into my room.

"he won't." I say getting stressed.

"just put on your outfit, I'll tell if it's nice or not." the voice says, leaving the room.

I put on my make up, dress, and curl my hair.

I have a date with my crush, Shawn, tonight and I don't want him to think I'm weird, I'm just so stressed and nervous.

"come in!" I say, signaling that the voice can come in.

"you look so beautiful!" he says.

"thank you." I say, walking out the door, to pick up Shawn.

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"you look beautiful!" shawn says, as I twirl around, showing him my appearance.

we drove to the diner, having a small talk.

"so what do you like to do?" Shawn asks me, turning to me.

"she likes to buy 100 dollar champagne bottles to swallow down the pain, and use her water bill to dry the stain." the voice says.

"shut up!" I scream.

"I'm done with you!" I say, getting stressed again.

"who are you talking to?" shawn says.

"oh no it's one of you. You can't wake up, this is not a dream,You're part of a machine, you are not a human being, With your face all made up, living on a screen, Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline." he says staring straight in my face.

"these voices won't leave me alone." I say gripping onto the wheel.

"get me out of this car!" Shawn says gripping onto the handle.

I unlock the car, watching him run away from me.

"I think there's a flop in my code."
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