Reckless • kenneth san jose

23: Unlove

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Kenneth

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After the dance, Mari and Keone brought us to this German restaurant for dinner.

I think it was called Burgschenke Rötteln? I don't really know. But inside was really lovely and wonderful. We are welcomed by employees with a warm smile and all of us felt like coming home. It was also very clean and neat.

"What do you guys want to eat?" Mari asked as we settled on one table.

"I was wondering if you guys can just pull off some dishes for us." Sean said.

"Why?" Keone smiled.

"You know what to get." Tati told Keone as a matter-of-factly.

"You've been here for a while so you should know." Gabe chuckled.

"Surprise us." Baikey grinned and crossed her arms.

"Bring it on, Sok." Keone crossed his arms too, as if mocking Bailey.

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"I can't breathe anymore." Sean leaned back and tried reaching a glass of water. 

"That's what you get for eating like a monster." Bailey chuckled.

"I can't help it. The food was too good to be true." Sean breathed in victory as he burped loudly.

"I win. I told you this place is great." Keone crossed his arms.

All of us talked a bit more about dance, career, LA, and the MSA Agency. The atmosphere is very random too, there might be silence for a while but it was a comfortable one.

I was drinking a cold glass of water when my eyes caught the most beautiful face ever. She's talking to Tati and Gabe about a random topic and laughing about it. How does she even manage to remain gorgeous while eating  very spicy noodle? Her giggle, such music to my ears. There are a lot of people and tourists in the restaurant but still, I choose to look at her as she was the attraction in the place. For so long I loved the familiar face. Loved, 'cause I am trying to get over her. This is right, what's the point in holding on to her when since the beginning, she never wanted my love, ever. And right now, I'm just trying to return the favor to her. This is what she wanted all along right? For me to unlove her.

Long enough, I found myself memorizing her features. So that when I completely lose my feelings for her, Joanna Diane Lawley will just be and remain as a beautiful nightmare to me.

"Why are you looking at me? Is there something on my face?" She asked.

I was caught off guard so I quickly thought of an excuse to tell her.

"Get a hold of yourself, Joanna. Why would I bother looking at you?" I asked as an excuse. I can't help but steal glances on her. She's really beautiful today. I mean, she is beautiful everyday but today, she stands out so well. 

She just grinned at me as I stood up heading away looking for a comfort room. I need to focus.

I breathed heavily as I opened the door and washed my hands.

"Stop this nonsense Ken, move on." I gritted my teeth.

I told myself as I looked at myself in the mirror. Then, a loud thud scared the shit out of me.

"Fuck." I turned around quickly.

"I'm-I'm sorry." The girl stuttered. But when she completely saw who I was, she smiled. "Well you're supposed to lock the door next time Ken." She chuckled.

"What are you doing here, Joanna?" I asked, giving her the cold shoulders.

"Looking for a comfort room. I didn't know comfort rooms can also be for unisex convenience." She joked which was true. I guess the architect of this structure didn't mind where they'll put another comfort room for girls so they decided to mix everything up.

I was starting to walk away when I felt someone grab me by my arm.

"Kenneth, wait." Jodi turned me to face her.

"What do you want?" I asked, pretending to be annoyed and cold.

"I know you're avoiding me, Kenneth. Giving me the cold shoulders, giving me silent treatment, and all those stupid stuffs you're doing just to forget me." She said.

"And what is it to you?" I crossed my arms at her and stood straight.

"You can't just forget me Kenneth! You just can't forget our memories! You can't unlove me!" She stood closer.

"Our memories? And.... unlove you?" I sarcastically chuckled. "Why do you care, anyway? This is what you wanted right?" I furrowed my eyebrows at her and left.

I immediately left because I knew myself too well. I would not take it if she breaks down and cry in front of me. 

"Kenneth?" I turned around and two figures came close to me.

"Hey Sean, hey Gabe." I gave them a small smile. Not wanting to show clues of any emotion.

"Do you really think it's best to forget her?" Gabe asked out of nowhere.

"What do you mean?" I looked at him.

"We know that you know what we meant by that, Kenneth." Sean tapped my back.

"Okay. I'm too hurt. If you were in my shoes, you guys would understand." I sniffed, I didn't realize I'm already tearing up.

"But Kenneth, just a bro reminder." Gabe side-hugged me along with Sean. "You can't just forget someone who gave you so much to remember. Or better yet, you can't just unlove someone you loved too much, especially when she's starting to grow the mutual feeling towards you." Gabe added.

"But how?! Tell me guys, how do I also forget all the pain she caused me?! That girl is also the one who hurt me too much, all she did was hurt me and step on the love I was letting her feel. She threw away everything I was giving her." I cried.

"You'll sort this out soon, Kenneth." Was all that stayed in my mind.

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