My Gay Roommate

Chapter 39 - I Never Hated You

Chapter 39 - I Never Hated You

“Angelina,” Dan said, catching my wrist. “Angelina, don’t run away from me. You should have just told me - ”

“That what?” I snapped, jerking my wrist free and holding back frustrated tears. “That I was in love with a homosexual boy? Who already had a boyfriend?”

“Yes,” he said, a distantly passionate yet concerned look on his face. “That’s exactly what you should have told me.”

“It doesn’t matter!” I shouted, stepping away from him. “My feelings....they don’t matter. I have Jacob, and you have Michael. Just keep this way.”

His expression suddenly darkened. “You can’t just tell me you like me and then expect me to do or say nothing about it. And why are you even bringing Jacob into this? This is about you and me.”

I shook my head, forcing back my tears threatening to spill. “No, there is no you and me. Dan, just forget about it. Forget about this all. If I could, I would forget about it all as well. I’d forget that I ever liked you, or that I ever met you. Don’t you realize this is all just a mistake?”

“You’re saying your feelings for me are a mistake?”

“Yes, they are.”

He stared at me, incredulous and I turned and ran out the front door.

But before I could make it further than just past the threshold, I bumped into someone walking through the corridor. I looked up with wide eyes, surprised and startled to find Jacob.

His raised his eyebrows when he saw it was me, and held me by the shoulders. “Angelina?” he asked worriedly. “What’s wrong?”

I swallowed and shook my head. “N-nothing...” I had completely forgot that he was coming over.

“Something is wrong,” he interjected, concern flickering through his eyes. And before I could say anything else to assure him that I was okay, he wrapped his arms around me tightly, pressing me against his chest.

His body was warm and inviting, but I felt no comfort in his hug. The worst part was that I could feel Dan’s eyes on us from the open doorway. I couldn’t imagine what he was thinking, seeing Jacob hug me after I’d just accidentally admitted my feelings for him.

“Jacob,” I said quietly, trying to detangle myself away from him. “I don’t deserve a hug from you.”

Jacob didn’t hear me, but he did release me a moment later. His eyes scanned my face and he slightly smiled. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

I nodded, biting my lip. Jacob, he deserved so much better than me. He was so kind, and caring, and all I ever did was go behind his back and lie. And I carried feelings for another guy other than him...

Jacob’s gaze fell behind me and he smiled a bit wider. “Hello Dan,” he greeted.

I flinched, practically feeling Dan’s eyes burn through me. When I turned my head to look back at him, he was no longer standing in the open doorway. It felt as if a heavy weight was being balanced on my shoulders.

“Hey, is that Jacob and Angelina I see?” The sound Michael’s voice filled me with instant relief and I whipped around as he came walking down the corridor with a smile.

“Michael,” I said, my tears almost returning at the sight of him. “Where were you?”

“Oh, I was just filling the car up with gas. Did Dan come up yet? He got kind of worried about you, so I dropped him off here before heading to the gas station.” He peered behind me.