Sarah's POV
I lied on my bed. The pain of being left by your own best friend is piercing through my heart.
I could feel myself is falling apart.
"See? She left you. No one can keep up with your dull attitude, Sarah. NO ONE."
The voice in my head made me numb. These feelings again.
"Sarah, Sarah, Sarah. Don't you want to go back to your old friend? A friend with its sharp teeth. Always waiting to cut your skin deeper than before."
The voice keep echoing in my head.
"Why Sam? Why?" I pound my face in the pillow.
I tried not to let the voice take over me.
"Sam, you said you wouldn't leave me, but you fucking did." I thought to myself.
I tried to hold back my tears. Oh God. It hurts so much.
"I swear, it hurts like hell. I can't deal with this. I'm not strong and I'm tired of pretending I am." My eyes started to fill with tears.
I opened the drawer and saw my old friend. A razor. A razor that I used to slit my wrists.
"I'm not gonna lose this time." I tried to hold myself back.
"Oh sweetheart. Cant you understand? You already lose the battle." The voice exclaimed inside my messy mind.
I'm completely lost inside these cruel thoughts, the silence trying to kill me and the voice inside my head with its sharp words that once teared my soul.
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Sam didnt come to school today. Its been like 2 weeks already. Everyone was wondering what happened between me and Sam.
"Sam. What are you thinking? Do you have any idea what are you doing?" I thought to myself as I looked at the outside of the class window and spaced out.
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A Spark Of Hope (#Wattys2016)
Teen Fiction||UNDER EDITING || [ I just want to die. ] This story is about Sarah, a young teenage girl who is suffering from depression, anxiety and mental breakdown. She wants to die. She thinks that she dont have any reasons to live anymore. Will she win or w...
